"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves, that's why, if you actually find someone you care about... it's important to let go of the little things - even if you can't let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone... no matter how many people are around you"
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I have a new hero and role model... he goes by the name of..
He's the Dr Cox of the 'real' world and being bluntly honest, is so close to my personality and outlook on life - it's scary and yet fun...
Straight talking, take no shit from anyone small guy - yep, he's my hero :-)
Had to go to doctors for results of X Rays on Spine and blood tests. I firstly got DocSlapped for my alcohol intake - he said it was the most disturbing thing, and then told other than that, nothing showed up for problems with legs and shoulder... so now I have to go for an MRI scan and then to see a neurologist... really not bang tidy news that!
Watched a really interesting dvd yesterday whilst stripping wallpaper and preparing walls for decorating - yes, it's that time of year again!
It's basically all about the Law of Attraction and after watching, I can draw parallels between the way i've been 'organising' my thoughts over the last couple of years, and the misfortune that came with them...
I'm not a very 'spiritual' person as such, but what do I have to lose... ?
Not sure on the status of my band. I've bought a new 24 channel mixing desk and new bass speakers - all I need is commitment from the lead guitarist... I would hate to lose him because we've known each other for years and it could possibly lead to a falling out between us.
Got to go for spinal X Rays tomorrow and full blood tests to find out why I have chronic pain in both legs and left shoulder - me no likee needles :'(
Just 19, a sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour...
Not been here for a while for lost of reasons....
Trying to get my finance in order Trying to get band off the ground (kinda hard when I keep getting let down) Health (i've felt better than I do to be honest) Boredom (sick of computers - it's a love/hate relationship)
Went to see my old hockey team play today. It was good to catch up with the guys and have a chat with them but it was painful to see them play a game that it it wasn't for personal health, I should still be playing. They lost 10-0 which was pretty bad... first time playing this team and they were all excellent skaters and positionally brilliant - a team to watch out for methinks!
No progress in garden ( sorry Yard :-p ) lately due to quite bad weather, it's strange the way it took a turn all of a sudden - I blame the French..
The whole school closure debacle took another turn today.... as damn near 500 people formed a procession (is that even a phrase??) through the whole area as a protest. I assume it was parents and patrons of the school
I had to surreptisiously take this picture as in this current climate of peadophilia scaremongering, it's considered a 'sin' to take pictures of youth / children without consent - mad country I live in!
Been on a weird retro kick lately - my fave movie ever!
If you've never seen it, I recommend a watch!
Anybody any ideas of killing aphids off - they are killing one of my conifers :'(
Spent a few days really thinking about the new band and me and Si are half agreed on a plan...
Si did this in his old band, with pink feathery boa and full garb... I reckon it could be one track in the first set to do purely for shits and giggles.. the crowd's as well as ours!
Found out my sister has diabetes - YAY! 3 out of 6 now have (minus my brother who has passed) have it :-S
This is my heart thats breaking down, I'm screaming someone help me please!
I missed another hockey friend's wedding.
I find it hard to go to these things as a 'singleton'. Back in the day, me and Stacey would have gone and as per, I would be with the guy's, she would be with the girls. Now it feels awkward for me to be at a social gathering like that and be by myself.
I'm kind of happy being single, nobody bitching about how much I drink or how much time I spend in front of the TV. But I also miss being part of Gav and.....
I've had plenty of chances for relationships... but I am so messed up myself I know I couldn't make them work.
Hey ho, all shits and giggles...
Band name will be Soundhouse - thats a definate. First practice has had to be put back a week as the rehearsal room is already booked.
Been writing again, it's my 'therapi' song I think (music is from a very good friend of mine and a very talented musician / songwriter) - thinking of the title 'breaking down' - meh!
First band meeting went pretty well. All 5 of us seemed to gel which is always a good sign (then again, that happened with my last band :-S )
The lineup consists of Si on lead guitar, John on rythmn guitar, Anth on bass, Chris on drums and yours truly on vocals - This is Si in guitar rock god mode...
At the meeting me and Si made the decision for each member to suggest a song to learn for next week...
My choice
Si's choice
Johns choice
Anth's choice
And finally, Chris' choice
Quite a varied selection and, hopefully, one that will appeal to the majority of any crowd we play to.
Not been drinking as bad as when I was at my 'best' but could still do a lot better. If this project is gonna be a go'er, I need to cut either right back or cut it off - I don't think I can be a social drinker.
Had an IB50 form to fill in again to prove I am incapable of working. I get annoyed (and hit the bottle harder) when I get these as they seem to expect a degeneritive disease like arthritis to magically get better since the last form. The operation I had was botched and I have a severely weakened left hand. I also have arthritis in my right hand, sciatica, scoliosis and a lumbar disc lesion... but they seems to think I can go and work in a factory for minimum wage!
If I could work, trust me, i'd still be running my computer consultancy. When I was XS Computers I had running agreements with several companies to maintain there equipment, I was building PC's for people daily and also making the obligitary call outs for virii and spyware removal... and I loved it. Now I struggle to type, have to pay someone if I need to change the motherboard in mine and can't spend too long at one because I can't sit for extended periods of time!
hey ho, it's all good though, at least I can read and listen to stuff using my laptop. Currently working my way through the Dalek Empire audiobooks.
And speaking of The Dokker (BIG assed spoilers for any Dr Who fans outside the UK!)
