tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-109444962011-11-27T00:14:43.417Z"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves, that's why, if you actually find someone you care about... it's important to let go of the little things - even if you can't let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone... no matter how many people are around you"bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.comBlogger3381100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-69204589420376842752011-09-15T04:00:00.001+01:002011-09-15T04:00:03.302+01:00<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6920458942037684275?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-58866365234054165272011-05-25T20:35:00.002+01:002011-05-25T20:35:54.238+01:00but you know that going in... You know the pain is coming, you're going to lose a dog, and there's going to be great anguish, so you live fully in the moment with them, never fail to share their joy or delight in their innocence, because you can't support the illusion that a dog can be your lifetime companion... There's such beauty in the hard honesty of that, in accepting and giving love while always aware it comes with an unbearable price... Maybe loving dogs is a way we do penance for all the other illusions we allow ourselves and for the mistakes we make because of those illusions...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5886636523405416527?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-28961412710141118162011-05-23T15:59:00.002+01:002011-05-23T15:59:34.649+01:00It's a strange feeling being told in no uncertain terms that the 'lifespan' you had expected, would not be as long as you thought, and it is almost like the Doctor stood up and punched you straight in the stomach... <br /><br />It initially triggers certain instinctual, <i><b>PRIMAL</b></i> instincts to do certain things... drink, eat, fuck, spend - the list goes on into what can only be classed as debauchery... and then comes the true realisation that it was the pleasurable things that got you into this predicament in the first place. <br /><br />It would be nice to say that it brings about the revelation that what truly matters are friends and family, but you find yourself pushing away from all outside involvement, believing that you have become a burden, or in extreme circumstances, a shame to them.<br /><br />The denial stage of the Kübler-Ross model isn't as long as you would expect either... every Google search you have made shows the same result - life with a progressive disease just doesn't last as long, and in the rare case that it does, it's not a happy life... so you then skip the next 3 stages and move on to acceptance.<br /><br />You accept that you will not get to fly on a Virgin Galactic sub orbital flight, you accept that you will not get to see first contact with another species, you accept that you will not get to see your favourite Hockey team... the Phoenix Coyotes ever raise that DAMNED Stanley Cup and you do what you do best... which is to live your normal, detached life and know that when you are gone, you HAVE left something to remember you by... people just don't know it yet.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2896141271014111816?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-27909436887140008062011-02-27T23:37:00.001Z2011-02-27T23:37:05.433ZWell, finally got my house back to myself. My guitarist / tattoist/ good friend Adam and his fiance Danni stayed over for the last 4 days. Adam is trying to get work in a tattoo shop back here so that he can bring his family back to this town - which, being the selfish whit I am, is really good for me... free tattoos because I am building him a website, and my lead guitarist back again for regular practices... <br/> <br/> W00t - Accidental Angels back in the house yo! <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2790943688714000806?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-30242354577941962762011-02-24T06:05:00.001Z2011-02-24T06:05:48.192ZBeen to see my GP today and heard 2 words in 1 sentence that really aren't easy to hear... <br/> <br/> 'and what are those words?' I hear the infinitesimal zero people that will ever read this... <br/> <br/> Liver Biopsy... <br/> <br/> There is nobody to blame except myself...<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3024235457794196276?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-71726680590183863942011-02-12T21:10:00.001Z2011-02-12T21:10:32.054ZCar was damaged again at half past four this morning... my medication had wore off and I woke up in agony when I heard a loud bang from outside. I put my light on to take a look and two young chavs were walking just past my next door neighbours car... I got some clothes on and got downstairs as.soon as I could, which is not easy because of my disabilities... went out and looked at my car and the wing mirror had been kicked off, the same with my neighbours car... the chavs had gone due to the time it took me to get there... so now I have to fork out about £120 for a new mirror because it is an electric one that folds back... not a happy bunny... <br/> <br/> Police came but they are about as much use as a part in a wind tunnel...<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7172668059018386394?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-60204320460571345812011-02-10T06:58:00.001Z2011-02-10T06:58:27.576Z<p><a href='http://lh5.ggpht.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/TVOMkRroRPI/AAAAAAAAARc/7MRVm65f9d4/IMAG0101.jpg'><img src='http://lh5.ggpht.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/TVOMkRroRPI/AAAAAAAAARc/7MRVm65f9d4/s400/IMAG0101.jpg' /></a></p>Coolamundo, new corner suite has arrived - just got to figure how to put it all together :/ <br/> <br/> Figured it out because I am awesome... <br/> <br/> <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6020432046057134581?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-68401435493931230202011-02-10T06:56:00.001Z2011-02-10T06:56:17.634ZWell, I've got my first official date in over 2 years for next week... and just for a change, she is my age and not half of it. <br/> <br/> I used to go to school with her and we reconnected through Facebook... she was pretty much a rebel at school but seems to have calmed down after she had kids etc... she is a very pretty little redhead called Lisa... <br/> <br/> I wonder if I can remember how to behave on a date :s <br/> <br/> I've just noticed the day she first suggested, and it was Valentines day - didn't realise this and said that Tuesday was better for me because I always edit my video work on a Monday night... <div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6840143549393123020?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-59332270543679125182011-01-29T13:49:00.001Z2011-01-29T13:49:12.992ZCoolamundo, new corner suite has arrived - just got to figure how to put it all together :/<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5933227054367912518?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-58335943976894515542011-01-22T02:15:00.001Z2011-01-22T02:15:00.992ZWow, I can't believe 2008 was the last time I made a post! <br/> <br/> Lots of changes, some good, some bad - more to come when its not 'stupid o clock' in the morning and I've took all my Meds... <br/> <br/> Feels great to be here again...<div style='clear: both; text-align: center; font-size: xx-small;'>Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5833594397689451554?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-46764652760302995712008-11-27T13:45:00.002Z2008-11-27T13:53:20.759Z<a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Danny_Bonaduce">Danny Bonaduce</a>...<br /><br />He's the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Perry_Cox">Dr Cox</a> of the 'real' world and being bluntly honest, is so close to my personality and outlook on life - it's scary and yet fun...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/r1_VjxFTUmM&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/r1_VjxFTUmM&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Straight talking, take no shit from anyone small guy - yep, he's my hero :-)<br /><br />Had to go to doctors for results of X Rays on Spine and blood tests. I firstly got DocSlapped for my alcohol intake - he said it was the most disturbing thing, and then told other than that, nothing showed up for problems with legs and shoulder... so now I have to go for an MRI scan and then to see a neurologist... really not bang tidy news that!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4676465276030299571?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-46860026125670786722008-11-11T23:57:00.002Z2008-11-12T00:11:03.540ZWatched a really interesting dvd yesterday whilst stripping wallpaper and preparing walls for decorating - yes, it's that time of year again!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/_b1GKGWJbE8&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/_b1GKGWJbE8&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />It's basically all about the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Law_of_Attraction">Law of Attraction</a> and after watching, I can draw parallels between the way i've been 'organising' my thoughts over the last couple of years, and the misfortune that came with them...<br /><br />I'm not a very 'spiritual' person as such, but what do I have to lose... ?<br /><br />Not sure on the status of my band. I've bought a new 24 channel mixing desk and new bass speakers - all I need is commitment from the lead guitarist... I would hate to lose him because we've known each other for years and it could possibly lead to a falling out between us.<br /><br />Got to go for spinal X Rays tomorrow and full blood tests to find out why I have chronic pain in both legs and left shoulder - me no likee needles :'(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4686002612567078672?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-83472052155260123392008-10-24T01:07:00.002+01:002008-10-24T01:09:00.483+01:00Not been here for a while for lost of reasons....<br /><br />Trying to get my finance in order<br />Trying to get band off the ground (kinda hard when I keep getting let down)<br />Health (i've felt better than I do to be honest)<br />Boredom (sick of computers - it's a love/hate relationship)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8347205215526012339?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-61065246396990257392008-07-13T01:34:00.003+01:002008-07-13T01:47:53.393+01:00Went to see my old <a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/">hockey team</a> play today. It was good to catch up with the guys and have a chat with them but it was painful to see them play a game that it it wasn't for personal health, I should still be playing. They lost 10-0 which was pretty bad... first time playing this team and they were all excellent skaters and positionally brilliant - a team to watch out for methinks!<br /><br />No progress in garden ( sorry <span style="font-weight: bold;">Yard</span> :-p ) lately due to quite bad weather, it's strange the way it took a turn all of a sudden - I blame the French..<br /><br />The whole school closure debacle took another turn today.... as damn near 500 people formed a procession (is that even a phrase??) through the whole area as a protest. I assume it was parents and patrons of the school<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://bp0.blogger.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SHlP3Je9jgI/AAAAAAAAALM/bEXLUZapHKY/s1600-h/100_1224.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://bp0.blogger.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SHlP3Je9jgI/AAAAAAAAALM/bEXLUZapHKY/s320/100_1224.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5222293051769982466" border="0" /></a>I had to surreptisiously take this picture as in this current climate of peadophilia scaremongering, it's considered a 'sin' to take pictures of youth / children without consent - mad country I live in!<br /><br />Been on a weird retro kick lately - my fave movie ever!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/xpvdAJYvofI&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/xpvdAJYvofI&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/e9kCG7U5Amo&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/e9kCG7U5Amo&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />If you've never seen it, I recommend a watch!<br /><br />Anybody any ideas of killing aphids off - they are killing one of my conifers :'(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6106524639699025739?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-12068956490572564042008-07-10T22:34:00.002+01:002008-07-10T22:38:59.022+01:00Spent a few days <span style="font-style: italic;">really</span> thinking about the new band and me and Si are half agreed on a plan...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Hcpvx2EVCpU&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Hcpvx2EVCpU&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Si did this in his old band, with pink feathery boa and full garb... I reckon it could be one track in the first set to do purely for shits and giggles.. the crowd's as well as ours!<br /><br />Found out my sister has diabetes - YAY! 3 out of 6 now have (minus my brother who has passed) have it :-S<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1206895649057256404?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-64397645892336078492008-07-05T12:47:00.004+01:002008-07-06T20:09:31.550+01:00I missed another hockey friend's wedding.<br /><br />I find it hard to go to these things as a 'singleton'. Back in the day, me and Stacey would have gone and as per, I would be with the guy's, she would be with the girls. Now it feels awkward for me to be at a social gathering like that and be by myself.<br /><br />I'm kind of happy being single, nobody bitching about how much I drink or how much time I spend in front of the TV. But I also miss being part of Gav and.....<br /><br />I've had plenty of chances for relationships... but I am so messed up myself I know I couldn't make them work.<br /><br />Hey ho, all shits and giggles...<br /><br />Band name will be Soundhouse - thats a definate. First practice has had to be put back a week as the rehearsal room is already booked.<br /><br />Been writing again, it's my '<a href="http://www.iddod.co.uk/therapi.htm">therapi</a>' song I think (music is from a very good friend of mine and a <span style="font-style: italic;">very</span> talented musician / songwriter) - thinking of the title 'breaking down' - meh!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6439764589233607849?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-54475340302528857222008-07-03T10:43:00.003+01:002008-07-03T11:14:14.698+01:00First band meeting went pretty well. All 5 of us seemed to gel which is always a good sign (then again, that happened with my last band :-S )<br /><br />The lineup consists of Si on lead guitar, John on rythmn guitar, Anth on bass, Chris on drums and yours truly on vocals - This is Si in guitar rock god mode...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://bp0.blogger.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SGyipm7ApNI/AAAAAAAAALE/UOrkm4YQsJQ/s1600-h/Si.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://bp0.blogger.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SGyipm7ApNI/AAAAAAAAALE/UOrkm4YQsJQ/s320/Si.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5218724903921951954" border="0" /></a>At the meeting me and Si made the decision for each member to suggest a song to learn for next week...<br /><br />My choice<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/_vx1MNJhTpk&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/_vx1MNJhTpk&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Si's choice<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Qxm_cY5jqmo&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Qxm_cY5jqmo&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Johns choice<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/M5mjN32G1iI&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/M5mjN32G1iI&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Anth's choice<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Pmn6HBjuk8w&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Pmn6HBjuk8w&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />And finally, Chris' choice<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/Djv5GJndscI&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/Djv5GJndscI&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />Quite a varied selection and, hopefully, one that will appeal to the majority of any crowd we play to.<br /><br />Not been drinking as bad as when I was at my 'best' but could still do a lot better. If this project is gonna be a go'er, I need to cut either right back or cut it off - I don't think I can be a social drinker.<br /><br />Had an IB50 form to fill in again to prove I am incapable of working. I get annoyed (and hit the bottle harder) when I get these as they seem to expect a degeneritive disease like arthritis to magically get better since the last form. The operation I had was botched and I have a severely weakened <a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/gallery2/main.php?g2_view=core:DownloadItem&amp;g2_itemId=155&amp;g2_serialNumber=2">left hand</a>. I also have arthritis in my right hand, sciatica, scoliosis and a lumbar disc lesion... but they seems to think I can go and work in a factory for minimum wage!<br /><br />If I could work, trust me, i'd still be running my computer consultancy. When I was XS Computers I had running agreements with several companies to maintain there equipment, I was building PC's for people daily and also making the obligitary call outs for virii and spyware removal... and I loved it. Now I struggle to type, have to pay someone if I need to change the motherboard in mine and can't spend too long at one because I can't sit for extended periods of time!<br /><br />hey ho, it's all good though, at least I can read and listen to stuff using my laptop. Currently working my way through the Dalek Empire audiobooks.<br /><br />And speaking of The Dokker (BIG assed spoilers for any Dr Who fans outside the UK!)<br /><br /><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/-xFMNrJmpaU&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/-xFMNrJmpaU&amp;hl=en&amp;fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><br /><br />I marked out like a 5 year old child :-D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5447534030252885722?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-84356296490737163842008-06-25T16:55:00.002+01:002008-06-25T17:00:24.712+01:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SGJq0IPIMEI/AAAAAAAAAK8/kEr51-ZJyYc/s1600-h/oooh.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SGJq0IPIMEI/AAAAAAAAAK8/kEr51-ZJyYc/s320/oooh.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5215848762245132354" border="0" /></a><br />This climbing wall was being set up the other day in the school opposite me, the school that the Government want to close, the school they deem 'unprofitable' and that 'nobody would miss'. I think it was part of the protest as quite a few things have happened there lately, a 50 child strong drum section banging out a tune and some kind of chant (can't hear what they are saying and don't want to intrude).<br /><br />This <a href="http://www.hartlepoolmail.co.uk/news/39Please-don39t-close-my-school39.4220001.jp">newspaper</a> article says it all...<br /><br />I hate the UK at the moment - closing schools and hospitals yet putting the tax up on Petrol - scumbags!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8435629649073716384?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-76999217233710138422008-06-10T22:35:00.004+01:002008-06-10T22:49:24.707+01:00Woke up to a clamouring noise this morning and looked out of my bedroom window to see...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SE7zyk4IeJI/AAAAAAAAAK0/XVs6O_DRSFo/s1600-h/100_1216.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SE7zyk4IeJI/AAAAAAAAAK0/XVs6O_DRSFo/s320/100_1216.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5210369869132363922" border="0" /></a>Seems that the school opposite me is scheduled to be closed down in a further <a href="http://www.hartlepoolmail.co.uk/news/School-closure-plan-protest.4165869.jp">cost cutting</a> exercise in education - coupled with the fact of the closure of several wings of the local hospital towards a possible shutdown, I wonder where the increasing taxes we pay are going to... oh yes, to pay for the third revamp of the Civic Centre in the last 5 years for no other reason than to waste money!<br /><br />Hooked up with an ex girlfriends sister on Friday - I basically got a booty call at half past two in the morning. I know the reasoning behind it and despite we have 'semi' hooked up a couple of times before, this time I know it is because she is arguing with Vicky and realised she can use this against her - I have no ties to anyone, much less Vicky anymore and hey, I was feeling lonely.<br /><br />Been let down with bass player for band - the little shit has refused to answer phonecalls or emails - I hate people who promise something then back out with no excuse.<br /><br />Loving this so much - even though it makes me think of Stacey...<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/LWvi1GvM0bQ&amp;hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/LWvi1GvM0bQ&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />Getting right back into Jimmy Eat World again, think I need to go see them live again<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7699921723371013842?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-79119555905253441972008-06-06T18:45:00.003+01:002008-06-06T18:49:12.884+01:00Just been asked my opinions on a song created by a very good friend of mine and, well, just wow!<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 204);font-family:Arial,Helvetica,sans-serif;font-size:85%;" ><em><br /><br /><span style="font-size:100%;"><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><a href="http://www.iddod.co.uk/therapi.htm">CLICKY</a> <span style="font-weight: bold;">to listen</span></span></span><br /></em></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7911955590525344197?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-80631247909759363802008-06-06T12:01:00.006+01:002008-06-06T18:14:17.185+01:00Spring hit the UK with pretty much torrential rain where I live... followed by 2 days of blistering sun. My usual gardener (I pay someone due to hand and back problems) didn't turn up so I decided to go out and do it myself. It is now looking nice and tidy again - I however, underestimated the strength of the sun and ended up with sunstroke and a lovely tan :-D<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SEkZ2rGKanI/AAAAAAAAAKc/nc2ra4uJj7o/s1600-h/100_1210.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SEkZ2rGKanI/AAAAAAAAAKc/nc2ra4uJj7o/s320/100_1210.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208722871102892658" border="0" /></a>Spent the rest of the day working on my fruit patch which is coming along superbly. Strawberries are budding and Gooseberries are well on their way. Now need to think of protecting them from the scavengers that patrol my garden on a night.. even as a novice gardener I am trying not to use chemicals so i'm calling in the big gun's, a friend of mine who makes a living from growing his own produce, for advice.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SEkaqj7S7zI/AAAAAAAAAKk/rlUKpFkA1FE/s1600-h/100_1214.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SEkaqj7S7zI/AAAAAAAAAKk/rlUKpFkA1FE/s320/100_1214.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208723762531462962" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SEka02jJSQI/AAAAAAAAAKs/ADgtjHhFWzg/s1600-h/100_1215.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SEka02jJSQI/AAAAAAAAAKs/ADgtjHhFWzg/s320/100_1215.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5208723939329132802" border="0" /></a>Acquired myself another PC the other day, this one purely for writing music, really good spec and also a professional external audio input card - score! Had a few bits of inspiration and I am really enjoying the creating process again - finally! We are trying for first band practice next week... just awaiting confirmation from bass player. It's still sort of a risk starting up now with the current 'social scene' climate at the moment. The way things are over here, 8 cans of lager can be bought for £5 from supermarkets, a bottle of vodka can be bought for £7 - people no longer find it a necessity to go to a club or a pub for a good night. It will only get worse with BBQ season fast approaching.<br /><br />Been invited to a friends BBQ tomorrow in fact - really looking forward to it. Shaun's family is from Ghana and one of his cousins has shipped over a food dressing that is apparently not allowed in this country - the way Shaun described it was thermonuclear fallout... on a burger :-D Looking forward to it as I like my food hot. I reckon as the night goes on it will turn into a pissing contest between us guys as who can eat the most of it - should be fun ;-)<br /><br />Been on a music inspiration mission and found some decent upcoming bands - a few of them quite local to me as well!! I love to see the UK music scene building up as it is.<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/MVvwGmIINQw&amp;hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/MVvwGmIINQw&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/BG6YipU7LfU&amp;hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/BG6YipU7LfU&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />It is my mission to introduce people to as much new music as I can - and some old classics...<br /><br /><object height="344" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/I4v8VJ0LRgA&amp;hl=en"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/I4v8VJ0LRgA&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" height="344" width="425"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8063124790975936380?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-10760411821700228652008-05-24T04:59:00.004+01:002008-05-24T05:06:10.066+01:00Looks like I may have a Bass player for new band project, my rythmn guitarists friend has volunteered and seems very keen. He's 22 and into the _real_ rock music... and he looks like Ozzy Osbourne :-) I've also decided that, as I thought of the name origionally _and_ designed the logo - we are going out under the banner of Accidental Angels - FACT!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SDeUFdWKobI/AAAAAAAAAKU/7G7hDcjI0Pk/s1600-h/AAlogo_new.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SDeUFdWKobI/AAAAAAAAAKU/7G7hDcjI0Pk/s320/AAlogo_new.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5203790715947753906" border="0" /></a><br />Been dragged into organising a talent competition for local club - thinking of entering myself doing this with my guitarist playing acoustic - t'is £1000 prize after all :-D<br /><br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/gA_rH9EYWVc&amp;hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/gA_rH9EYWVc&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1076041182170022865?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-14148937549372736942008-05-17T16:58:00.003+01:002008-05-17T17:06:43.155+01:00Cut all ties with Stacie, I just stopped answering texts and phonecalls - I just can't do it anymore, it's unfair on me...<br /><br />Got rythmn guitarist for new band project (tentatively titled The Last Stand) and just trying to get a practice organised (and a bass player!)<br /><br />One suggestion that I wholeheartedly agree with<br /><br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/3-bQCleq0zU&amp;hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/3-bQCleq0zU&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />and another...<br /><br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/X8R-ElXVN9g&amp;hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/X8R-ElXVN9g&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />need to get this off the ground soon before I lose faith and will to do it...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1414893754937273694?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-21246988253717835052008-05-12T00:04:00.002+01:002008-05-12T00:12:11.706+01:00First meeting with potential drummer went ok. He's a quirky guy (I would say bordering on OCD) with a few foibles - but don't we all. Me and Si agreed to give him a try out - first songs (this is spooky) - <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjuDJtCXGqM">Whitesnake, Fool for your loving</a>, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mrAdflj54K0">Steppenwolf / Hinder, Born to Be Wild</a> and <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZtn9AwgfQQ">Laura Brannigan, Self Control</a> (but a rocked up version based on the opening guitar riff)... 2 out of the 3 were done by Accidental Angels :-S<br /><br />" As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.<br /><br />Don't be afraid that your life will end,<br />be afraid that it will never begin."<br /><br />Amen to that<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2124698825371783505?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-49096468087533221492008-05-08T00:03:00.002+01:002008-05-08T00:12:55.256+01:00Stacie has been texting me, I just feel like she is using me to have a home when she leaves her boyfriend.<br /><br />Band situation is now looking good - Si, my guitarist is gonna phone the 2 drummers to scope them out...<br /><br />Good god she is a quality songwriter<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/wYWv_NSBZQI&amp;hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/wYWv_NSBZQI&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br /><br />and she sooo reminds me of Billy Bragg, in fact, just found...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/y9LJ-72C9OU&amp;hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/y9LJ-72C9OU&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4909646808753322149?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-13187983929787759022008-05-07T16:52:00.001+01:002008-05-07T16:53:44.466+01:00Oh, had 2 drummers in touch wanting to play with new band project - it's something I suppose<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1318798392978775902?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-54038028847300877162008-05-07T16:43:00.002+01:002008-05-07T16:49:06.220+01:00Once alcoholism sets in, it's a hard 'habit' to get rid of - it's not so much the withdrawal symptoms 'cos each time you kick it, they seem to be easier to handle as you know <span style="font-weight: bold;">exactly </span>what is coming, it's that as soon as the slightest thing goes wrong, pisses you off, mildly irritates you, your first reaction is to have a drink... which leads to another... which leads to 3 weeks of non sobriety.<br /><br />It's easy to stop caring about your own health, it's easy to stop caring about what people think of you or how you come across with people, it's easy to stop caring...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/tkJNyQfAprY&amp;hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/tkJNyQfAprY&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5403802884730087716?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-6990768806580595812008-04-30T20:16:00.000+01:002008-04-30T20:20:06.211+01:00Slipping back into old habits. Nothing to inspire me otherwise.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-699076880658059581?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-32496546445403944882008-04-30T04:44:00.002+01:002008-04-30T04:48:08.731+01:00Not doing well with alcohol abstinance - pretty much feeling like a pariah with family<br /><br />Not sure that I care much anymore<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3249654644540394488?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-7832941553165031772008-04-30T03:55:00.002+01:002008-04-30T03:59:05.095+01:00I'm getting pretty dis-illusioned about the band situation. Nothing seems to be coming together other than me and guitarist (now that just sounds rude!! Should edit but can't be arsed)<br /><br />I want to do something musically - AA evened me out for the short time we were together.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-783294155316503177?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-66127351096854664362008-04-29T01:31:00.002+01:002008-04-29T01:36:13.465+01:00<object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/glERPMfMbwI&amp;hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/glERPMfMbwI&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br /><br />Really loving this track - they are typical 'prettyboy' rock but it's quite infectious.<br /><br />And an old fave back again - Singer was in a boy band but more than redeems himself with the guitar work on this<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/H-gq0aaR2RY&amp;hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/H-gq0aaR2RY&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br /><br />Getting the love for music back again - finally!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6612735109685466436?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-4122787580538255282008-04-28T00:56:00.004+01:002008-04-28T01:10:48.234+01:00<object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/lAofihA_G30&amp;hl=en"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/lAofihA_G30&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />Accidental Angels played this and I miss the time we had together, as bitter as I am, I miss them - there was a lot of potential there - anyways, new band on the up lead guitarist stuff here http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&amp;friendid=369007380&amp;MyToken=1e54e4b7-27f5-496c-a8bb-0dbbc645de79 just looking for srummer and bass player.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-412278758053825528?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-35106677557082743512008-04-27T16:00:00.000+01:002008-04-27T16:02:37.091+01:00<object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/orACIBjHuI4&amp;hl=en"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/orACIBjHuI4&amp;hl=en" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br /><br />She's really good.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3510667755708274351?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-19001254859762244312008-04-13T17:12:00.004+01:002008-04-13T17:26:29.649+01:00Quick garden update. After lots of chainsawing and digging, my garden now looks like this...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SAIxttKqEHI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/XVcn7C2RFIo/s1600-h/100_1202.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SAIxttKqEHI/AAAAAAAAAJ8/XVcn7C2RFIo/s320/100_1202.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5188764381972402290" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SAIx-tKqEII/AAAAAAAAAKE/WMTkcMllzDc/s1600-h/100_1200.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SAIx-tKqEII/AAAAAAAAAKE/WMTkcMllzDc/s320/100_1200.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5188764674030178434" border="0" /></a><br />It's a bit of a change from what it was when I moved <a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2007/03/your-piece-of-me-is-fading-part-of-me.html">here</a>. Still lots to do but i'm getting there. Bought my decking, just need to buckle down a bit. It's just hard to work for more than half an hour before my hands give in...<br /><br />When I had just started to chainsaw part of the elder tree I caught something out of the side of my eye... cut the chainsaw out and had a gentle dig around, and found two froggies... was really glad I saw them. Knowing that they would go straight back to the area they were in I decided to drop some water in my pond liner and leave them there 'til I am done hacking about... tips about how to keep froggies content would be muchly appreciated...?!?<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SAI0B9KqEJI/AAAAAAAAAKM/uKD0aoqds-g/s1600-h/100_1199.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/SAI0B9KqEJI/AAAAAAAAAKM/uKD0aoqds-g/s320/100_1199.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5188766928888008850" border="0" /></a>Been quite a bit more content lately for some reason. Alcohol control is probably the main factor. I still have odd occasions, but i'm doing better, <span style="font-weight: bold;">much</span> better :-)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1900125485976224431?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-17455311586278279692008-03-23T00:16:00.002Z2008-03-23T00:30:17.782ZI was supposed to go on an all expenses paid trip to Mexico a few weeks ago with a good friend, then I found out that my passport has been stolen from my house :'(<br /><br />I need to find some kind of music project, be it a solo act, duo or a full blown rock band again. I can sing, I <span style="font-weight: bold;">know</span> I can sing and the more I leave it, the more I am chancing not getting back to it.<br /><br />I'm managing quite well with not drinking. I have not totally cut it off as I occasionally have a drink on a night when I feel like it - impreovement nonetheless.<br /><br />Stacie has been texting me again and she said that she really does love me and she gets jealous when she knows I am with other girls. She was in my local last night and she looked stunning.<br /><br />It's bloody cold in the UK at the moment, apparently the coldest easter weekend since 1964 :-S It's Zero degrees at the moment and it's been trying to snow for days.<br /><br />Got big plans for my back garden now i'm off the drink, pictures to follow :-)<br /><br />Happy easter to all one person of me who reads this ;-)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1745531158627827969?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-78222953228831210282008-03-11T02:30:00.002Z2008-03-11T02:38:28.993ZRound two of the 'stone cold sober' experiment started 2 and a half days ago. I managed to get through it without the withdrawal symptoms this time. I need to do this because my health is getting worse...<br /><br />My car went in for her test last week and failed. I cost me basically every single penny I had to get it roadworthy and road legal. Next project is to modify it to look a little different, and I hope that now i'm not spending every single penny on alcohol, I can do it.<br /><br />When you have nothing it's easy not to care, because you have nothing to lose. Through alcoholism I lost a lot of money, friends, my health and very nearly my family. I know myself there is only so much help you can give someone, even siblings, before you give up and cut the cords.<br /><br />Hands are worse these days, I was given the news last Doctors visit that the bone graft I had 4 years ago hasn't worked.<br /><br />Traded some of my Xbox 360 games in yesterday. I went slightly mad when I got it and bought games I have only played once and either couldn't play, or didn't like. They gone now - All I really play is Call of Duty 4 online with friends - it's my social life :-S<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7822295322883121028?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-61325025629781793972008-02-22T22:37:00.004Z2008-02-22T22:54:15.385ZI'm tired of trying to live up to what is expected of me. I am an alcoholic - DEAL WITH IT!<br /><br />Another thing to piss me off tonight was that the money we (HMMMMM, _I_!) raised for the hospice has been lost track of so they can't issue a cheque for the presentation tomorrow... despite them knowing for about a month this was happening. The Secretary stood there and chuntered on - and was close to getting a smack. The treasurer, who is supposed to be a friend said 'fuck them, they will have to wait' - all the while the club is getting the interest on the money raised. It was apparently paid into the club bank account and as the treasurer said 'we haven't had the books back' - bullshit!!<br /><br />Had contact from a drummer and a guitarist who have heard my stuff and want to sing with them... but communications seem to have broke down due to my inability to function normally without alcohol (again) and the solo idea I had has hit the rocks because it looks like my car may be _really_ off the road next week, tax and MOT are due and I just can't afford it.<br /><br />I know that <span style="font-style: italic;">certain</span> people who read this will think 'so stop drinking' but it isn't as easy as that, I wish they could experience the badness that is withdrawals... actually I DO wish they could because I have such disdain for them.<br /><br />We are all architects of our own design, and we have to live with the construction we build.<br /><br /><object height="355" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/aLC3uT3aCoE&amp;rel=1"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/aLC3uT3aCoE&amp;rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="355" width="425"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6132502562978179397?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-13007836274319073772008-02-09T03:57:00.000Z2008-02-09T04:01:11.526ZThe 'bands' PA now belongs to me, I bought them out. I hope they die a death when they play, if they ever do...<br /><br />I am soooooooo JD, except he has hair :-S<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ng61VVx4eLk&amp;rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ng61VVx4eLk&amp;rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1300783627431907377?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-60867252172805109902008-01-28T14:40:00.000Z2008-01-28T14:52:25.330ZI am absoloutely fucking furious. Just had an answerphone message on my phone from the drummer, John, saying that 'we need to sort the gear out' and 'if I want they will buy me out as I own 25%' - 25% my fucking arse. When I first won the stuff at auction there was a 20% commision charge on £300, £60 that I paid and said I would take the hit for, for the band. Then when I took delivery of the equipment, stuff was missing, cables and the cd player mainly. I replaced the cables, out of my own pocket with money that I couldn't really afford, bought a set of par cans out of my own pocket with money that I couldn't really afford, got the desk professionally electrically cleaned out of my own pocket with money that I couldn't really afford, and those cheecky fucks think that they can give me £75 and take the stuff away - they can kiss my arse. <span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span> will buy them out with money I don't have because I am not losing the £310 that I have <span style="font-weight: bold;">out of my own pocket with money that I couldn't really afford</span>, for them tossers to fuck me over like they have! What really fucks me off is that if we were 25% partners, everytime I told them I had to go and get something, why did they not offer to chip in?????<br /><br />At least it's given me proof that once an alcoholic, always an alcoholic - all it takes is one event...<br /><br />I fucking hate people<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6086725217280510990?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-71182406842859013432008-01-23T15:27:00.000Z2008-01-23T15:37:29.131ZThe band, Accidental Angels, is no more. Well, no more with me singing. The bass player and drummer came round last Friday for a 'meeting' and as I could see the way it was progressing, I quit before they could tell me they didn't want me anymore. Their 'argument' was that they have deviated from the musical path that they initially wanted and made it clear that they placed the blame on me. It took me a few days to realise that 3 out of the songs they mentioned were initially suggested by <span style="font-weight: bold;">THE TWO OF THEM!!</span> End of the day, fuck them and their short sightedness when it comes to what they are doing, I hope, as I have predicted, they die on their arse due to musical bigotry. The worst of it is that the two guitarists <span style="font-weight: bold;">HAD</span> to be in on this yet neither mentioned it, so much for mates. It fucking hurts me that afetr all the effort put in they would want to discard me as they have but fuck them - solo for me it looks like.<br /><br />When nobody wants you it's easy to fall into (or back into) a self destructive pattern and 2 days before the 'meeting', as I already had an inkling what was going on, i've been drinking again... possibly more than before - it's kind of hard to be certain.<br /><br />Becoming pretty much a hermit, don't want to leave the house other than to stock up on alcohol, ignore the door and phone...<br /><br />sucks really...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7118240684285901343?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-53686803581068043782008-01-02T01:39:00.000Z2008-01-02T02:02:00.386ZBeen uber busy lately decorating. Because I had it half done and had visits from 2 seperate young ladies I decided to work on and on. Firstly, better quality pictures of exactly how <span style="font-weight: bold;">bad</span> the walls were.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rsX87q1fI/AAAAAAAAAJU/6lFyqCYpVxM/s1600-h/100_1177.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rsX87q1fI/AAAAAAAAAJU/6lFyqCYpVxM/s320/100_1177.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5150689020089128434" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rslc7q1gI/AAAAAAAAAJc/_Uv8qKpblFA/s1600-h/100_1178.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rslc7q1gI/AAAAAAAAAJc/_Uv8qKpblFA/s320/100_1178.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5150689252017362434" border="0" /></a>And now the finished room, or should I say <span style="font-style: italic;">nearly</span> finished. I have two new black wrought iron decorative curtain poles, curtains and tie backs to fit. I bought the wrong size for the front window so need to get a patch piece :-S<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rtQ87q1hI/AAAAAAAAAJk/4alkYpn3-UU/s1600-h/100_1179.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rtQ87q1hI/AAAAAAAAAJk/4alkYpn3-UU/s320/100_1179.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5150689999341671954" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rte87q1iI/AAAAAAAAAJs/7FUXcyvYgRU/s1600-h/100_1180.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rte87q1iI/AAAAAAAAAJs/7FUXcyvYgRU/s320/100_1180.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5150690239859840546" border="0" /></a>And thirdly, a close up of my media system, just because it's prettyful. The TV and 360 were a treat for cutting down on my alcohol intake.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rt2c7q1jI/AAAAAAAAAJ0/XR42Ydzg4fQ/s1600-h/100_1181.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R3rt2c7q1jI/AAAAAAAAAJ0/XR42Ydzg4fQ/s320/100_1181.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5150690643586766386" border="0" /></a>I still need to wire teh surround sound kit up. Tomorrow is a busy shopping day. I need speaker wire to stretch round the room and quadrant to trace all the wires under the laminate flooring. I want this room done properly. I picked the same colours that I re-decorated my old flat in because I think it makes for a really warm room.<br /><br />Christmas was so so, I was quite poorly with some weird ear infection going on (still sort of is). I couldn't hear a thing and it knocked my balance to hell. Still, got a load of nice pressies and (hopefully) gave some.<br /><br />New Years Eve... With my ear still being funny I decided on a night in my house just playing Xbox - that and another reason. Since 23:57 last night, not one single drop of alcohol has passed my lips! Yes folks, I am now 26 hours sober. No withdrawal symptoms because I did it gradually. That was my New Year resolution along with eating healthy and getting fitter than I am. All things I had been promising myself for the past year - had a good start though.<br /><br />Stacie has been round a couple of times and i've took her out a couple. She is still with her boyfriend and even though I like her a lot, i'm happy for her 'happiness?'<br /><br />This guy is a genius. I have both his DVD's :-p<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/IZjMgbRUsZM&amp;rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/IZjMgbRUsZM&amp;rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5368680358106804378?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-59409990276735745802007-12-18T00:47:00.000Z2007-12-18T00:55:05.604ZI suck at sobriety, and eating well, and training hard... I suck badly!<br /><br />At least I have my flooring laid in my sitting room, thats something I suppose?<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R2cZZRZ8tiI/AAAAAAAAAJM/IUcgonn1tQ0/s1600-h/DSC00081.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R2cZZRZ8tiI/AAAAAAAAAJM/IUcgonn1tQ0/s320/DSC00081.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5145109021253744162" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R2cZEBZ8thI/AAAAAAAAAJE/NISEBpKDmkg/s1600-h/DSC00080.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R2cZEBZ8thI/AAAAAAAAAJE/NISEBpKDmkg/s320/DSC00080.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5145108656181523986" border="0" /></a>Walls are mainly filled and the bits that need plastering done, still looks like I am living in kuwait!<br /><br />Band meeting last week went not so well. They are basically wanting to just play pubs, I have a bigger vision. I am going to email them tomorrow when I am slightly more compus mentus to offer to buy the shares in the PA. That way, if AA goes down the shitter, I hve the option of either starting a band afresh or doing the solo thing. I, to be honest, am majority shareholder in the PA anyways as I have spent a fortune on cables and lights, far more than the cost of PA!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5940999027673574580?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-80533742979938467222007-12-10T23:23:00.000Z2007-12-10T23:24:06.169Z... so there<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8053374297993846722?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-37258628140328497662007-12-09T01:37:00.000Z2007-12-09T01:56:19.070ZAway again for soooooo long, meh!<br /><br />The charity gig went really well, we raised £700 for the Hartlepool Hospice, which is a place Cancer patients go in their final days. only 5 members of my 9 million strong family turned out and quite a lot of 'friends' who said they were coming never bothered. Who gives a shit, we enjoyed it, went down really well and made money for a deserving charity so HOO RAH! The only semi negative comments we got were that we need to play more 'commercial' stuff - which I have been saying from Accidental Angels inception!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R1tJB1OQtII/AAAAAAAAAI8/e6luK7sWlJo/s1600-h/aa2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R1tJB1OQtII/AAAAAAAAAI8/e6luK7sWlJo/s320/aa2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5141783695389144194" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R1tI5VOQtHI/AAAAAAAAAI0/zkCm-IPJJgY/s1600-h/aa1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R1tI5VOQtHI/AAAAAAAAAI0/zkCm-IPJJgY/s320/aa1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5141783549360256114" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R1tIy1OQtGI/AAAAAAAAAIs/ZLGEeheVJyo/s1600-h/aa.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R1tIy1OQtGI/AAAAAAAAAIs/ZLGEeheVJyo/s320/aa.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5141783437691106402" border="0" /></a>Mandy has been round a couple of times and I could tell that she wants a lot more from me than I am willing, or even able, to give. There was no real <span style="font-style: italic;">spark</span> from her, she was just like any random I can, and have brought home lately, and I think she deserves better than that - so i've told her that it's not going to happen...<br /><br />Had a text message from a 'friend' of mine tonight letting me know that Vicky has been asking about me and how I am doing - thats a road I don't want to, indeed, <span style="font-weight: bold;">CAN'T</span> go down again - she is happy in a relationship (as far as I know).<br /><br />Christmas shopping completed, wrapped and stored away.<br /><br />Front room decorating coming on. Nearly fully stripped and half filled. Should be ready for Christmas, hopefully - even if a basic paint job.<br /><br />One thing i've learnt is that an alcoholic can never be a 'social' drinker. I have had a couple tonight and at the moment, know that if I had some in my house, I would have more. Tomorrow I will again have to fight the urge to go and buy some alcohol, be it vodka or whatever is at hand in my local. I am going to have one last night tomorrow and then abstinate totally. Monday is my D-Day, drop the drink, for good, start training again and eat well again. fingers crossed :-S<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3725862814032849766?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-40014184726335749162007-11-24T18:25:00.000Z2007-11-24T18:55:22.924ZI have half cast out my demon. I have had days when no alcohol has passed my lips... how? I hear your collective cry :-S<br /><br />With the whole tonsillitis thing I was very feverish, so I took this as an opportunity to <span style="font-style: italic;">let</span> myself suffer the withdrawals, and hardly noticed them. I am not fully 'on the wagon' yet as it's my bands first real gig on Wednesday and I know I will need some dutch (well, Russian) courage.<br /><br />Went to the Newcastle leg of the <a href="http://www.tasteofchaos.com/">Taste of Chaos</a> tour last night. Five bands, The Blackout, Gallows, Aiden, Rise Against and The Used. Awesome night other than Gallows, a punk band from Watford in England. At one point, because a group of girls (some as young as 13) didn't like them, the lead singer spat in the face of one of them, then called her a 'bandy legged, ugly cunt'. Arrogant piece of trash and not very talented at that either!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hzLdZIP-I/AAAAAAAAAIk/KvDtvyyhgmM/s1600-h/toc5.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hzLdZIP-I/AAAAAAAAAIk/KvDtvyyhgmM/s320/toc5.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5136482015721832418" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hx2tZIP8I/AAAAAAAAAIU/vhM8sPQstoI/s1600-h/toc3.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hx2tZIP8I/AAAAAAAAAIU/vhM8sPQstoI/s320/toc3.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5136480559727919042" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hypNZIP9I/AAAAAAAAAIc/Iw_dW2nKUhA/s1600-h/toc4.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hypNZIP9I/AAAAAAAAAIc/Iw_dW2nKUhA/s320/toc4.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5136481427311312850" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hxG9ZIP7I/AAAAAAAAAIM/yazEpyxRLh8/s1600-h/toc2.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hxG9ZIP7I/AAAAAAAAAIM/yazEpyxRLh8/s320/toc2.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5136479739389165490" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hwp9ZIP6I/AAAAAAAAAIE/iVdKB68dovw/s1600-h/toc.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/R0hwp9ZIP6I/AAAAAAAAAIE/iVdKB68dovw/s320/toc.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5136479241172959138" border="0" /></a>Treat myself to a new LCD HD Television and an Xbox 360 as a reward and an incentive to go sober. Had most of the repairs done on my car so she should be on the road again soon. Things are looking up a bit.<br /><br />My Christmas shopping is<span style="font-weight: bold;"> officially </span>finished - YAY!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4001418472633574916?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-18220573976471568022007-11-16T02:26:00.000Z2007-11-16T02:47:24.689ZPeople assume that alcoholism is a purely mental addiction. What happens is that your body gets use to a certain level of alcohol and anything less causes the physical side to manifest. With me I get 'antsy', I get a full body twitch, from head to toe and I get a quake through my body - even if i'm not shaking on the exterior. I'm experimenting on cutting down.<br /><br />Treat myself to an Xbox 360 and a couple of games today - Call of Duty 4 and Halo 3. Going out to buy a 37" LCD TV tomorrow. Then it's time to get my car back on the road. See, i'm trying to kill off this addiction...<br /><br />Good band rehearsal last night. It went well. One left before gig :-O<br /><br />Had a big problem with my throat today. It feels like my tonsils are swollen and every time I swallow, they are halfway down my throat - nice!<br /><br />And boy do I know how to pick 'em. Mandy has been texting me and phoning me all day wanting to know what she has 'done wrong'. I haven't had my mobile with me because I can hardly speak and feel so ill I don't want to deal with people... there's another potential down the drain! I always seem to attract the schizo's!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1822057397647156802?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-66861744045005765992007-11-09T16:47:00.000Z2007-11-09T17:02:29.308ZWOW! Finally some good news in this cherry topped shitsundea of my life. I WON MY APPEAL! <a href="http://www.benefitsinmind.org.uk/physical_descriptors_1.htm">Physical descriptors</a> scored at 19 - a little different to the 0 I scored from the private 'doctor'. The threshold for what I am in reciept of is 10... Which just goes to show what a sham the National Health Service in the UK is!<br /><br />Today I recieved a letter saying they owe me over a thousand pounds in back money, which gives me the security of now paying off all the bills I owe.<br /><br />The defining point of this is that they cannot send me on some stupid assed scheme to turn me into a statistical figure of someone they 'rehabilitated'. I'm in no physical or mental condition for that to happen, brutal to myself, but truthful.<br /><br />Mandy was texting me last night. She wants to go out again. Half way through texting her back, Stacie, one of my ex's sent me a message to see if I was out... she is 20, Mandy is 37... conundrum time again...<br /><br />Just eat some king crab claws. Beautiful, but hard to eat with having no strength in hands and I now smell like the beach - and not in a pretty way!<br /><br /><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chuck_%28TV_series%29">Chuck</a> is the best new TV series ever!! Plus <a href="http://l.yimg.com/img.tv.yahoo.com/tv/us/img/site/97/80/0000039780_20070516150413.jpg">Lisa the Gift Shop Girl</a> from Scrubs is in it...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6686174404500576599?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-9838487320537787512007-11-08T01:09:00.000Z2007-11-08T01:19:20.680ZFor the first time in, I wouldn't like to count how long, I had a proper date last night. Me and mandy went out for a few drinks, just to see how things went. I'm not the best judge (of anything really) but it seemed ok. My friends liked her, we got on well, there was no pressure and we ended up at mine... where we kissed and nothing more! I sort of felt that I like her too much to rush into stuff. Wow, guess I am sort of growing up!<br /><br />Had the pleasure of getting home today to find a kid jumping all over my car. I shouted to the mother to let her know I had seen her and got abuse about how she was 'gorna sue me for sllllander'. I have had so much damage done to my car since I moved here it's ridicolous... and it's all down to scumbag <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chav">chav</a> families like that one. She tried to say she was getting her 'boyfriend' to come round (probably another smackhead who thieves from cars) and sort me out.<br /><br />Hate this place at the moment.<br /><br />Still no decision on appeal.<br /><br />My nephew flipped his car. Been driving just under a month, he reckons he braked hard, I know he was speeding.<br /><br />Theres 2 blogs I miss reading, they evened me out?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-983848732053778751?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-35508925404836406312007-11-03T15:41:00.000Z2007-11-03T15:44:56.091ZOh dear, it's now confirmed for the Charity gig. We are doing it for the Hartlepool Hospice, a charity that is pretty close to me as I have lost a lot of family members to Cancer.<br /><br />Wow, quite impressed. A friend of mine asked me to design a flyer for their business and despite not doing anything like this for sooooo long, I am very happy with teh result... and so is he :-)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3550892540483640631?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-5803861394851353672007-11-03T14:49:00.000Z2007-11-03T14:58:54.495ZWell, i'm not too convinced that my appeal went my way. The questions they asked were pretty ermm, fucking stupid and they skimmed over my alcohol addiction and well, to be honest, my mental state, both in the past and at the moment. They also kept making excuses for the cock of a doctor who made the origional decision saying that 'he only reports _his_ thoughts'. Not heard anything so far despite them saying I would get their decision in a couple of days.<br /><br />Fred Mascherino has left Taking Back Sunday to concentrate on his 'side' project, The Color Fred. Gutted he is gone from TBS but TCF's stuff is pretty good.<br /><br /><object width="425" height="355"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/8BHIOMrd2aA&amp;rel=1"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/8BHIOMrd2aA&amp;rel=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="355"></embed></object><br /><br />Me likee.<br /><br />Got dragged down to the Town last night for beers. Saw Stacie, one of my ex's and she looked pretty. Met up with a girl I origionally met last year. She ended up having a 'semi' relationship with a friend of mine, Stu - who neglected to tell her he was married with a newborn baby... when she found out she wanted nothing to do with him. There was always something there between me and her, Mandy, from the beginning and last night it came out... until Stu got jealous. Being the gentleman I am, I let them get to talking, he was first in the queue after all. She took my mobile number so it's all on her...<br /><br />Drinking hard again...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-580386139485135367?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-7804781070035394422007-10-31T00:03:00.000Z2007-10-31T00:10:11.034ZSo finally the day of my appeal has rung in - shitting bricks!<br /><br />Looks like my band, Accidental Angels and Kenny's 'comedy' duo are doing a Charity gig for the Hartlepool Hospice the 28th of next month - shitting bricks!<br /><br />I am shitting bricks so much I could build a fucking extension!<br /><br />Made myself a last supper in view of the appeal. Rib eye steak, cooked blue of course, rainbow peppers, mushrooms, onions and cherry tomatoes. I was impressed<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyfHXhh5kCI/AAAAAAAAAH8/zExE-1qOJB0/s1600-h/100_1028.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyfHXhh5kCI/AAAAAAAAAH8/zExE-1qOJB0/s320/100_1028.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5127285907736072226" border="0" /></a>and my camera has gone completely spazmoid since the stupid time change thing<br /><br />Meh!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-780478107003539442?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-60330740413362560132007-10-28T01:25:00.000Z2007-10-28T01:56:47.602+01:00Anybody out there with experience of getting splitting footage from a DVD? I've managed to transfer our last band practice to DVD, but don't know how to break it down into chunks :-S<br /><br />I'm not proud of my alcohol addiction but I am not ashamed of it either. I have either hurt or alienated a lot of people who didn't deserve it and meant a lot to me... but I have have been abandoned by a lot more due to my problem, and that hurts ME more! Half rant comes from a comment made tonight with regards to 'ex' friends...<br /><br />Me gotsa a big assed spider living outside my house!!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyPeKhh5kBI/AAAAAAAAAH0/2Hww48q4nTs/s1600-h/spidey.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyPeKhh5kBI/AAAAAAAAAH0/2Hww48q4nTs/s320/spidey.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5126185073258369042" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6033074041336256013?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-89318818686895089342007-10-27T01:38:00.000+01:002007-10-27T02:03:26.221+01:00Wow, didn't realise it had been so long since I posted on here!<br /><br />Alcohol intake has been managed to the point that I don't get tremors through my body after a period of no drinking, well, not as bad as they were... they still come on but it takes less drink to 'defer' them - it's a start?<br /><br />Our band, Accidental Angels, has been coming along really well. We played a set for <a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RqNVfxne2HI/AAAAAAAAAHM/hDB7cv92SbA/s1600-h/DSCF0159.JPG">Rob</a> and Fran's joint birthday and got positive feedback. It was a pretty informal gig but just to play in front of people was a kick!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyKLCRh5j_I/AAAAAAAAAHk/UJ9IaKzOutI/s1600-h/n573208625_255224_4342.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyKLCRh5j_I/AAAAAAAAAHk/UJ9IaKzOutI/s320/n573208625_255224_4342.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5125812197082632178" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyKLWBh5kAI/AAAAAAAAAHs/QCoIZjeLXXg/s1600-h/n573208625_255228_5331.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RyKLWBh5kAI/AAAAAAAAAHs/QCoIZjeLXXg/s320/n573208625_255228_5331.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5125812536385048578" border="0" /></a>The origional idea was to play in a Marquee but it looked like rain, so we played in an extension to the farmhouse... and acoustically - it kicked ass!!<br /><br />Had the great (dis)pleasure this week of having to go for <a href="http://hcd2.bupa.co.uk/fact_sheets/html/Gastrointestinal.html">Gastroscopy</a>. For about the last five years i've had a big problem with keeping food down and also indigestion. My GP wanted me to go for this procedure because, obviously, alcohol abuse can increase the risk of cancer. I was told that the tube they pass into the throat was 'narrow' - like fuck! It was basically the width of a garden hosepipe!!! And to make things worse, due to my illness, they couldn't sedate me as the drug they use can have negative effects with alcohol :'( It took 3 nurses to hold me down during the procedure, and typically - the one keeping an eye on my stat's, Vicki, was breathtakingly gorgeous! I can't remember much of it other than being told afterwards I was trying to kick the doctor and that my pulse went up to 170bpm - apparently my threshold for age / weight etc is 184 before I stroke out... nice to know. Results? Hiatus Hernia, oesophagitus and multiple erosions in digestive tract... shit happens I s'pose<br /><br />Stressed about next weeks tribunal...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8931881868689508934?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-44083672962227192132007-09-18T22:57:00.000+01:002007-09-18T23:20:46.079+01:00Been to see my GP today and she said it out loud... I am an alcoholic. I also had the pleasure of being told that the operation on my <a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/gallery2/main.php?g2_view=core:DownloadItem&amp;g2_itemId=155&amp;g2_serialNumber=2">left wrist</a> didn't work and I still have a non union scaphoid fracture... glad all the pain I have been through was for nothing!!<br /><br />Got my new car, the Vectra SRI. Fast as fuck... and off the road. I was lied to about about the length of test on it and the condition it is in! It cost me basically every penny of the insurance money I got from my old car and then some!! New tyres all round (still needs one at the front, just can't afford it), exhaust, brakes all the way round... my cheap car has turned out to be not so cheap...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RvBMqZZpcPI/AAAAAAAAAHc/cf0CmjvL5fo/s1600-h/sri.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RvBMqZZpcPI/AAAAAAAAAHc/cf0CmjvL5fo/s320/sri.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5111669868322189554" border="0" /></a><br />Shiny and pretty though isn't she....<br /><br />Alcohol intake? Not so good, in fact a lot worse than it has been for quite a while. If i try to stop or cut back I get what can only be described as a tremor through my body... and it's not a nice feeling - the cure? More alcohol...<br /><br />Booked in for an endoscopy next month to find out why I can't keep food down, why I keep vomitting blood and why I get indigestion so much and so badly... pretty much a given what the result is!<br /><br /><br />Tribunal for incapacity is next month, Halloween no less... Citizens Advice Bereau are representing me and reckon I have good merit for appeal... the 'Doctor' I spoke to has made note that I am an 'occasional social drinker only' and that I 'have no problems with depression'... ooh!! I also 'claimed to have had a nervous breakdown'!?!?! 2 weeks in a mental care unit doesn't proive that?? If that bloke was a real doctor i'm a fucking astronaut!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4408367296222719213?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-67995157039389411992007-07-31T22:52:00.000+01:002007-07-31T23:08:02.461+01:00Second counselling session tonight at 'The Substance Misuse Counselling & Advice Centre', still feel i'm getting nowhere. Anne, the lady I see wants me to ask my GP to put me through detox. I've tried the 'no alcohol' thing and know the damage it can do... yes there is the medication they give you but is the cure worse than the curse??<br /><br />'Alcohol detox can be defined as a period of medically monitored treatment, were a person is helped to overcome their physical dependence on alcohol. The objective of alcohol detox is to help the patient achieve an alcohol free state. Detox is intended to relieve the physical symptoms of withdrawal. Detox helps prepare the patient for entry into treatment and rehab. Therefore, the ultimate goal of detox is preparation for long term recovery from alcoholism. Alcohol detox is most commonly completed in an inpatient, medical setting. Alcohol detox can cause a variety of major and/or minor physical, sometimes psychological, manifestations. <span style="font-weight: bold;">The process of alcohol detox can be traumatic</span>. Alcohol detox has the potential for triggering any number of side effects. These can range from mild to quite severe. Mild reactions to alcohol detox can include tremors (the shakes), headaches, vomiting, perspiration, restlessness, lose of appetite and insomnia. More serious effects of alcohol detox can be Delirium Tremors (DT’s), autonomic hyperactivity and seizures (convulsions). <span style="font-weight: bold;">It has been estimated that 1 in 4 patients are at high risk of a withdrawal seizure if not medically treated during alcohol detox</span>. The time necessary for alcohol detox can be anywhere from 3 to 14 days. A variety of medications and procedures are used to detox from alcohol in a medical environment. Buprenophex, certain benzodiazepines and anticonvulsant medication are some of the medications used.'<br /><br />Lovely, no??!!<br /><br />Finally had some good news this week. Insurance company has settled on my laptop and I have a big ol' cheque sat in my bank waiting to clear, means I can buy a new laptop this week hopefully... also, Car claim has cleared and the bus companies insurer has offered me the full value of my car to write it off - as a Cat D write off which means I keep car as it is 'A damaged vehicle which the insurer has decided not to repair, but which could be repaired and returned to the road.' so I can sell it on, I just have to make the buyer aware what has happened!<br /><br />New car coming soon? 2.0 99 Vectra SRI? Fast as fookery?? Oh yes!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rq-whRne2II/AAAAAAAAAHU/eYymlC3uhW4/s1600-h/sri.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rq-whRne2II/AAAAAAAAAHU/eYymlC3uhW4/s320/sri.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5093483789290494082" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6799515703938941199?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-59732136780128753792007-07-22T13:28:00.000+01:002007-07-22T14:05:45.507+01:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RqNQbBne2GI/AAAAAAAAAHE/n6_qLixAdxc/s1600-h/fordy1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RqNQbBne2GI/AAAAAAAAAHE/n6_qLixAdxc/s320/fordy1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5090000429079517282" border="0" /></a><br />A very good friend of mine in the deepest coldest parts of Canada, Ancaster if I remember correctly. Love the photo, it's just so... Fordy!!<br /><br />Had my first session of counselling, well, it was more like an initial assessment. Ann, the counseller, was very easy to talk to (as I suppose they have to be) and wants to see me on a weekly basis. She warned me not to stop drinking but to try and just get it under control, tame the beast as it were.<br /><br />I've been drinking more since I admitted it all.<br /><br />Still got no income, car hasn't been sorted, laptop still not sorted.<br /><br />Got a new guitarist, second guitarist sorry, for band. Kris is 23 and one of the most natural and talented kids i've ever had the privelige to play alongside. On a bum note, Rob, our lead guitarist has cancelled out of todays rehearsals due to a tummy bug. I'm just hoping he isn't pulling a 'Graeme' and looking for a way out. Him and Kris make an outstanding guitar duo and I can see this band going far. I think, to be honest, if Rob wasn't gonna stick around, he would say though as he is a pretty stand up guy. We sat talking until stupid o clock this morning about the band and different music. At one point he said '<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Gav, you are seriously one of the best and most adaptive vocalists I have ever worked with.' and to get a compliment like that from a guitarist like him i was... well, I still am, on a major high. This is Rob by the way, he is very eccentric and thespiany!!<br /><br /></span><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RqNVfxne2HI/AAAAAAAAAHM/hDB7cv92SbA/s1600-h/DSCF0159.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RqNVfxne2HI/AAAAAAAAAHM/hDB7cv92SbA/s320/DSCF0159.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5090006008242034802" border="0" /></a><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">But I think thats quite easy to see...<br /><br />The front runners for names are Run Riot, Soundhouse and Cardinal Sin. We decided on Accidental Angels only to find another band already has it - Bastards!<br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5973213678012875379?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-67056051522769062142007-07-10T11:01:00.000+01:002007-07-10T11:03:47.020+01:00Woke up at 8 this morning<br /><br />Been drinking since<br /><br />Stacie has been texting me wanting to 'do something'<br /><br />meh...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6705605152276906214?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-5965609922984047602007-07-04T13:16:00.000+01:002007-07-04T13:24:31.313+01:001. I have seen 4 dead bodies in my life, 2 parentals, 1 relation and 1 friend.<br /><br />2. I am extremely egocentric despite having no self confidence.<br /><br />3. I miss white dog poo and 8 bit computers.<br /><br />4. I squint a lot becuse I hate bright light and it gives me wrinkles.<br /><br />5. I will only eat meat that I know was raised well and prepared without pain.<br /><br />6. In senoir school I had the nickname of Cyanide Sid because somebody put a chemical in a pot of coffee that we were _all_ drinking and I got the blame!!<br /><br />7. I am extremely competitive despite being not very good at anything.<br /><br />8. I spent a fortnight in a Mental Care Unit, the first week under 24 hour surveillance and I never want to go back.<br /><br /><a href="http://chocolatecliche.blogspot.com/">Charlie Bucket</a> tagged me, now I tag YOU!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-596560992298404760?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-80228150881347257682007-07-03T23:28:00.000+01:002007-07-04T00:13:14.042+01:00Had a bad couple of weeks. First and foremost is that I have been considered 'fully capable to work in my prior occupations', despite having 2 severely arthritic hands and a major back problem... and thats before we even touch upon a major case of alcoholism. Basically this means I have no incoming money... AT ALL!!<br /><br />I have been to my GP this week to speak about my hands, back and.... yep, finally done it, my drink problem. I was offered medication to help the withdrawal symptoms but I turned it down. It's not medication I need, it's some kind of support. I have friends and family on my case about my alcohol intake but thats all they do, bitch about it... what kind of therapy is that??<br /><br />One of the other shitty things that went wrong lately is that my car was hit by a bus... whilst parked outside my house no less. The damage is superficially not much but structural... who can tell??<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RorRkczJ0vI/AAAAAAAAAG8/_5OoUS-75d4/s1600-h/100_0960.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RorRkczJ0vI/AAAAAAAAAG8/_5OoUS-75d4/s320/100_0960.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5083105553577267954" border="0" /></a>The driver, who had a bus full of kids (it was a school run), didn't stop and didn't report it. It was only after I went down and informed the police that they tracked the route down. My insurance company have fixed me up with a brand new car that the bus company <span style="font-weight: bold;">have</span> to pay for until my claim is sorted. I hope they write my car off, I hate driving in <span style="font-style: italic;">any</span> car that has been involved in an accident!<br /><br />How's my band going I hear you (not) say? Absoloutely tremendous. As a foursome we click really well and on my pushing, have just obtained a PA system from an auction room for next to nothing. I do feel really positive about this project and to be honest, it's all I have going on in my life that is good. Should have some videos to post here soon!<br /><br />The last few days Stacie, an ex of mine (who is living with her boyfriend who she has a baby to) has been texting and MSN'ing me wanting to go somewhere. I was going to take her (and Reece, her son) out today (just as a friend) but had to go and try and sort my income out so had to cancel... the result? 12 missed calls from her and 6 texts... because I left my Mobile at home... then I get an MSN message from her saying that she was going to leave her boyfriend for me!!<br /><br />Women...sheesh!!!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8022815088134725768?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-51035709887785136522007-06-21T22:37:00.000+01:002007-06-21T22:52:26.475+01:00Been out doing more work in my garden. My fruitpatch is coming along tremendously, the fruit bushes are looking really healthy and my first batch of strawberries are budding, some of them are starting to redden...<br /><br />Before all the back breaking work...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RnrwDbrQU9I/AAAAAAAAAGs/0P2J63lODeY/s1600-h/Garden.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RnrwDbrQU9I/AAAAAAAAAGs/0P2J63lODeY/s320/Garden.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5078635471573111762" border="0" /></a><br />and after...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RnrwRLrQU-I/AAAAAAAAAG0/Q8zy-NHq2Mo/s1600-h/garden2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RnrwRLrQU-I/AAAAAAAAAG0/Q8zy-NHq2Mo/s320/garden2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5078635707796313058" border="0" /></a>There is still a hell of a lot of work to do, not least building a fence at the back and installing a big assed wildlife pond, gonna stock it with some fish and let it attract whatever water based creatures feel the need...<br /><br />Band rehearsel the last few weeks has been amazing. Bought an effects unit for reverb on my vocals and a new microphone and boy do they make a difference! We've lost a guitarist (very careless of us, wonder if he is behind the sofa?) and learn't 2 new songs, Funeral for a Friend - Into Oblivion and Bad Religion - Infected (yay for guitar heroes!). We are looking to gig pretty soon and are looking at options for PA equipment and a screen to project some kind of light show behind us... getting serious about this now!<br /><br />Tonight is a big old experiment for me. I am a self confessed alcoholic, well, a self confessed drunk because i've never been to a meeting. Today I have had a 35cl bottle of vodka and I am now drinking pre-bottled <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shandy">shandy</a> - a basically alcohol free drink. My reasoning is that I spend so much time in front of my PC that I have gotten used to having a drink at the ready... hopefully this will help me turn that part of my life around. I have lost so many friends down to my drinking it is unreal.<br /><br />Had my bathroom plastered yesterday. It was <span style="font-weight: bold;">fully</span> artexed (artex is a textured surface, very 80's, very annoying and ugly) and was an embarresment to a non too special home to begin with. I've stripped 2 rooms ready to remove the dado rails and then I can get to painting and laying my laminate... hopefully soon.<br /><br />Not been out for a while, every penny I get seems to be going on the house... at least it is going to something useful and not 2 litres of vodka a day!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5103570988778513652?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-23178733521269914682007-06-20T00:32:00.000+01:002007-06-20T01:03:27.817+01:00I'm not a big fan of 'reality' TV, because the majority of people who want to be on Big Brother and it's ilk have nearly all had media exposure for quite a lot of their lives... thats not reality, fuck, why not just put the Hilton sisters in the BB house? One show has me hooked though and that is <a href="http://www.fox.com/hellskitchen/">Hells Kitchen</a>. I've never seen the UK version and i'm currently trying to get it but the yank version is awesome. <a href="http://www.gordonramsay.com/">Gordon Ramsey</a>, to me, is your atypical English stereotype. Most countries expect us to be all greyhounds and crumpets and tea at 11 with the Queen... we're not. Attitude wise I think we could rival the Americans for that certain part of our society which embraces violence as part of it's daily life... there are certain elements in this country who partake in violence <span style="font-style: italic;">BECAUSE THEY CAN! </span>GR on the other hand is a <span style="font-style: italic;">very</span> successful millionaire (possibly more) chef with no bones about telling people exactly what to do and where to go... This bloke is my new idol!!<br /><br />Finally figured out the whole process of converting my camera footage to dixv for upload to youtube so I have upped some more footage from Lanzarote...<br /><br /><object height="350" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/t7c-iO1T_H8"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/t7c-iO1T_H8" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="350" width="425"></embed></object><br /><br />Done a lot more work on my house, trashed the evil orange bush thing that was taking over the arse end of my garden. Got a plasterer coming in tomorrow to do bathroom and patching. I ache!<br /><br />Been reading a book on Manic Depression, bipolar for non UK, and although I do show quite a lot of signs, i'm not sure<br /><br />Alcohol consumption cutdown has started again. Drank half the amount I had last night and feel ok. I think because I am stuck in front of my PC or my TV for so long it's instinct to reach out for a drink... kinda like somebody who smokes saying that they eat more because there hands need to be doing something?<br /><br />Last band rehearsal went awesomely. We've lost a guitarist, he felt he was letting us down by not turning up (and also his 2 other bands have PA equipment!!) - Rob, our lead guitarist can easily make it work by himself, the dude has talent! I am gaining a bit more confidence and I think it is showing to the rest of the band... I hope so anyways...<br /><br />I <3<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RnhusbrQU8I/AAAAAAAAAGk/1h4VlzN8ef8/s1600-h/phwoarr.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RnhusbrQU8I/AAAAAAAAAGk/1h4VlzN8ef8/s320/phwoarr.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5077930289482716098" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2317873352126991468?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-67677227131003404952007-06-12T01:02:00.000+01:002007-06-12T01:53:31.687+01:00Spent a couple of days really depressed. I had a text from my niece, Jodie asking if I wanted to take her dog in because she thought it wasn't fair for her to be near our Jordan, who is 4 year old, and only having a small yard to use - basically, she was panicking about buying her food etc. I said yes because I was thinking about getting a dog. First night, Sheba was fine and loved it here in my garden - the next morning was a different matter. I could tell she wasn't her normal self, she wasn't eating and wouldn't go out. I knew she was pining for our J and at her age (she's 12), it would not do her health the slightest bit of good so, as much as it tore me apart, I took her back down to our Jodie's house and after 10 minutes of being back there, she livened up which was proof to me that I made the right decision for her. I told my niece that if she ever needed food or treats to give me a call and I will buy them and drop them off but under no circumstances can she ever give Sheba away because if she does, she will just pine herself away.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rm3mTrrQU3I/AAAAAAAAAF8/cQuO7ikvrbE/s1600-h/bless.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rm3mTrrQU3I/AAAAAAAAAF8/cQuO7ikvrbE/s320/bless.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5074965580932469618" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rm3mmrrQU4I/AAAAAAAAAGE/-juqYXxAp48/s1600-h/bless2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rm3mmrrQU4I/AAAAAAAAAGE/-juqYXxAp48/s320/bless2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5074965907349984130" border="0" /></a>Started a new training regime today. This evening's workout consisted of a chest workout of Incline Bench Press of 100kg, Pec Dec at about 50kg (hard to judge weight when using a multigym) and Flat Bench Press of 110kg then a short tricep workout of pushdowns and kickbacks. I actually feel quite good for it! Tomorrow is going to be Cross Trainer day for aerobic stuff, something I started to do at my old gym before shit happened...<br /><br />Spent a bit of time in the garden digging up the roots from the bush I cut down. Took it's toll on me but at least things are moving along. Had to set fire to part of them to weaken them and it looked prettyful!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rm3nJLrQU5I/AAAAAAAAAGM/_5u_6qzVhso/s1600-h/FIRE.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rm3nJLrQU5I/AAAAAAAAAGM/_5u_6qzVhso/s320/FIRE.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5074966500055470994" border="0" /></a>Went for a medical on Saturday. The Doctor seemed more concerned about my stay in the Mental Care Unit than my hands or back. One question he asked was if I though I still had mental health issues... I paused... and he ticked yes! Guess I am a certifiable loop then!! The question about my alcohol intake came up and I answered truthfully - just wish I could do that to AA or my GP... tomorrow is the day I try the first step of cutting back again - /me 'fraid :-(<br /><br />Bought myself a new Mic and effects unit for the band. Been getting positive feedback about my voice and am actually starting to believe I can do this!<br /><br />Found a pure 100% class quality site at <a href="http://www.tv-links.co.uk/">TV Links</a> - it has movies, mucis vid's, tv shows... I love it so much I want to have babies with it! I've watched practically every episode of Scrubs on this (even though I have them on DVD!)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6767722713100340495?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-31788278744574044572007-06-02T23:11:00.000+01:002007-06-02T23:17:14.666+01:00Oooh, forgot to mention. Stacie sent me a text message the other night asking me to go on msn. After an hour of talking and stuff she changed her display name to 'love is blind you need a push' - she kept pushing me to find out who I was wanting to be with and all I can assume after all the hints I had given her is that she seriously doesn't think like a normal person. I wanted to tell her that I wanted to take her out somewhere... but I still feel like she is doing her old thing and just using me for somewhere to stay if she leaves her boyfriend...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3178827874457404457?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-16212948831965022062007-06-02T22:41:00.000+01:002007-06-02T23:07:08.036+01:00Spent the last couple of days doing silly jobs around the house. Dug up roots in the garden, had a major clean up etc etc When I was pulling some roots up a frog jumped out (My next door neighbour said there is loads, this is the first I have seen) and I poo'd my panties... I ran screaming like a character from a Scooby Doo cartoon!!!!! Then chilled, took a sip of vodka and took a photo...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RmHnfOoinqI/AAAAAAAAAF0/zdeGCJrB_D8/s1600-h/Froggy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RmHnfOoinqI/AAAAAAAAAF0/zdeGCJrB_D8/s320/Froggy.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5071589179085987490" border="0" /></a>Had a decent night down the town last night after going up the club. I kinda keep getting the impression that a certain young (21) female that I know is interested in me - so i'm probably wrong, I usually am!!<br /><br />Woohoo, finally got my multigym all set up. The biggest job was the cabling cos if it's wrong, it just don't work. My office / gym area is now complete - I have cross trainer for aerobic stuff, weight bench with a good stack for heavy lifting and Multigym for all purpose use... now all I need is to stop drinking from dawn 'til dusk and hit the mofo like a beyotch... WORD!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RmHmf-oinpI/AAAAAAAAAFs/BV_BOAw8lS4/s1600-h/gym.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RmHmf-oinpI/AAAAAAAAAFs/BV_BOAw8lS4/s320/gym.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5071588092459261586" border="0" /></a>Music has always been my passion, singing and writing and yet I have never had confidence in either. Last band rehearsal was Thursday and John, our drummer, was working away so we basically did our set list accousticly [sic] and surprisingly, well to me at least, it sounded well. The lead guitarist Rob played an acoustic, rythmn guitarist Graham played his normal guitar through the tiniest amp ever with an acoustic modeller on his pedal and bass player Gary played at the ,ost minimal volume his amp would allow. I sang with no mic and we worked on backing vocals and arrangements of the songs. I have a<span style="font-style: italic;"> really</span> good feeling about this band. We've been offered quite a few gigs, one playing at my local no less for a fund raising event for the clubs 50th anniversary... it's gonna be a sell out... scary!!!<br /><br />My new love - I so want to meet her... awesome voice live as well! What can I say, redheads ROOL - for proof check out <a href="http://omnamaste.blogspot.com/">Carrie</a> and <a href="http://katfran.blogspot.com/">Kathryn</a><br /><br /><object height="350" width="425"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/DGrbe2-wdtU"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/DGrbe2-wdtU" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" height="350" width="425"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1621294883196502206?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-53891871968569923782007-05-30T23:54:00.000+01:002007-05-31T01:19:53.311+01:00Lanzarote!!! Wow, i've never visited such a beautiful place in my entire life. Costa Teguise, where we stayed, is a purpose built resort specifically for the tourism industry and they aren't allowed to build over a certain height so as not to spoil the look - they also can't build in a certain style (was told this by Susannah, the nicest barmaid ever in our apartments - she was a doll!). We got up to quite a bit of mischief, including meeting 2 Scottish girls, Lauren and Katrina, <span style="font-style: italic;">majorly</span> abusing the French for being... well, for being <span style="font-weight: bold;">French</span> :-D (not meant in a rascist way, we jusy overheard one of the French dudes spinning lines about being Johnny Depps manager so we just extracted the Oui Oui for the week they were there :-D ), invading another hotels pool, abusing <span style="font-style: italic;">our</span> pool at 4 in the morning... just teenage boy stuff really (said the 36 year old). Hehe!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4GsuoinXI/AAAAAAAAADc/M_F4XuLybU0/s1600-h/Anth.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4GsuoinXI/AAAAAAAAADc/M_F4XuLybU0/s320/Anth.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070497595967839602" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4RPuoinmI/AAAAAAAAAFU/W0oNZPRoxuc/s1600-h/view.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4RPuoinmI/AAAAAAAAAFU/W0oNZPRoxuc/s320/view.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070509192379539042" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4RwOoinnI/AAAAAAAAAFc/9RdTqlbxk4M/s1600-h/Whee.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4RwOoinnI/AAAAAAAAAFc/9RdTqlbxk4M/s320/Whee.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070509750725287538" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4P-eoinjI/AAAAAAAAAE8/UZ3ogKiqOXY/s1600-h/Macho.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4P-eoinjI/AAAAAAAAAE8/UZ3ogKiqOXY/s320/Macho.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070507796515167794" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4Q2-oinlI/AAAAAAAAAFM/TM8Jl7GzwEo/s1600-h/Teguise.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4Q2-oinlI/AAAAAAAAAFM/TM8Jl7GzwEo/s320/Teguise.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070508767177776722" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4SK-oinoI/AAAAAAAAAFk/szjfQ71vB1o/s1600-h/Windmill.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4SK-oinoI/AAAAAAAAAFk/szjfQ71vB1o/s320/Windmill.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070510210286788226" border="0" /></a>We made friends with pigeons....<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4QW-oinkI/AAAAAAAAAFE/ulOBnJsaiXU/s1600-h/Pigeons.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4QW-oinkI/AAAAAAAAAFE/ulOBnJsaiXU/s320/Pigeons.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070508217421962818" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4PYeoiniI/AAAAAAAAAE0/RhNGuoTEhHw/s1600-h/Airport.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4PYeoiniI/AAAAAAAAAE0/RhNGuoTEhHw/s320/Airport.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070507143680138786" border="0" /></a>We had to be superheroes for a night, I was Captain Underpants, defender of all that is lacey...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4JyOoinbI/AAAAAAAAAD8/GrGsU6kqWo8/s1600-h/Underpants.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4JyOoinbI/AAAAAAAAAD8/GrGsU6kqWo8/s320/Underpants.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070500988992003506" border="0" /></a>... and Anth was my sidekick, Y-Fronts Girl...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4IEeoinaI/AAAAAAAAAD0/pqJD0oM-XiI/s1600-h/Anth4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4IEeoinaI/AAAAAAAAAD0/pqJD0oM-XiI/s320/Anth4.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070499103501360546" border="0" /></a>This was the beach we swam on practically everyday, but around sunset...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4LEuoincI/AAAAAAAAAEE/J6U51wFh-9g/s1600-h/beach.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4LEuoincI/AAAAAAAAAEE/J6U51wFh-9g/s320/beach.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070502406331211202" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4LmuoindI/AAAAAAAAAEM/2nio5ZwGAX0/s1600-h/Beach2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4LmuoindI/AAAAAAAAAEM/2nio5ZwGAX0/s320/Beach2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070502990446763474" border="0" /></a>And by daytime.... the blot you can see is Anth. The water was about 20 foot deep there and you could still <span style="font-style: italic;">see</span> the bottom!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4MUuoineI/AAAAAAAAAEU/ASVIXkHJ69E/s1600-h/Beach3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4MUuoineI/AAAAAAAAAEU/ASVIXkHJ69E/s320/Beach3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070503780720745954" border="0" /></a>And by daytime on the one stormy day we had (weather was 35 degrees, there was just a bit of wind!)<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4M7eoinfI/AAAAAAAAAEc/6sTCu2DT5UY/s1600-h/Beach4.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4M7eoinfI/AAAAAAAAAEc/6sTCu2DT5UY/s320/Beach4.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070504446440676850" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4Hl-oinZI/AAAAAAAAADs/4fHSnUwKags/s1600-h/Anth3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4Hl-oinZI/AAAAAAAAADs/4fHSnUwKags/s320/Anth3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070498579515350418" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4HNuoinYI/AAAAAAAAADk/UnjGGFNcfcQ/s1600-h/Anth2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4HNuoinYI/AAAAAAAAADk/UnjGGFNcfcQ/s320/Anth2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070498162903522690" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4OzuoinhI/AAAAAAAAAEs/UmuD0PCalqA/s1600-h/view.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4OzuoinhI/AAAAAAAAAEs/UmuD0PCalqA/s320/view.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070506512319946258" border="0" /></a>I decided, when Anth was doing his hair(???) that as a 19 year old who hasn't felt shaving foam, he was missing out... so I emptied a full tin and threw it at his face!!!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4N6uoingI/AAAAAAAAAEk/cxTL8xekjJI/s1600-h/Splat.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rl4N6uoingI/AAAAAAAAAEk/cxTL8xekjJI/s320/Splat.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5070505533067402754" border="0" /></a>All in all it was the best holiday I have ever had, even despite the fact that...<br /><br />... 6 days before we went, <span style="font-style: italic;">someone</span> thought it would be amazingly funny to kick the wing mirror off my car. The wing mirror itself wasn't so much the problem, it's the fact that there is paint damage to the drivers side door, the electric window's rail mechanism is bent where they tried to put their foot through the window (I wish they had succeeded, might have severed a vital artery!) and the electric mirror mechanism is damaged... total value of repairs? Looking at about £500. I have been told by 2 different people, unconnected people a name, the same name...<br /><br />The cutting down on alcohol hasn't gone well at all, in fact I think it has got worse. I'm getting to the point now that I <span style="font-style: italic;">need </span>to seek help... it's just making that first move!<br /><br />Finally got my Multigym here, all set up and ready to go. It took me damn near two weeks to set it up! Pfft, they make it look easy in the brochures!!! The first thing one of my mates who want's me to help him train did... bench press, full extension then <span style="font-weight: bold;">DROP</span> the bar back - he nearly tore both his arms out of the sockets!! Damn n00bies :-S<br /><br />Not had the weather to do anything in the garden other than spend some time trying to kill weeds... i'm surprisingly enjoying gardening. Need to get the garden, bathroom and kitcen ready for end of July for my housewarming and Anth's birthday.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5389187196856992378?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-41716474603111313232007-04-19T00:04:00.000+01:002007-04-19T00:43:08.615+01:00I'm not convinced that true justice in this world exists. It seems to me that the people who look out only for themselves, especially at the expense of others are the ones who have the benefits... money, companionship (even when they bitch about it all the time), friends...<br /><br />So the family week away was pretty good. It was a well needed break and a good warm up for Lanzarote. We fly out two weeks tomorrow!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RianGiqmu0I/AAAAAAAAACs/vLNPYU7a6d4/s1600-h/noway.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RianGiqmu0I/AAAAAAAAACs/vLNPYU7a6d4/s320/noway.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5054911362596518722" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RianbSqmu1I/AAAAAAAAAC0/Z2Hr2tKNV1Q/s1600-h/bendy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RianbSqmu1I/AAAAAAAAAC0/Z2Hr2tKNV1Q/s320/bendy.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5054911719078804306" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RiaoJyqmu3I/AAAAAAAAADE/I22PJI3kD00/s1600-h/haha.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RiaoJyqmu3I/AAAAAAAAADE/I22PJI3kD00/s320/haha.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5054912517942721394" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RiaobCqmu4I/AAAAAAAAADM/ysfqwNbjHKs/s1600-h/kieran.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RiaobCqmu4I/AAAAAAAAADM/ysfqwNbjHKs/s320/kieran.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5054912814295464834" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Riaoxyqmu5I/AAAAAAAAADU/4xKcf3g5cd4/s1600-h/wtf.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Riaoxyqmu5I/AAAAAAAAADU/4xKcf3g5cd4/s320/wtf.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5054913205137488786" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RianxSqmu2I/AAAAAAAAAC8/Ih-HzbbRmGA/s1600-h/aimeerabbit.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RianxSqmu2I/AAAAAAAAAC8/Ih-HzbbRmGA/s320/aimeerabbit.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5054912097035926370" border="0" /></a>Had a weekend away at the Grand National for my sisters birthday. Was dwcwnt other than I had sunstroke the first day - again, the baldy dude doesn't learn that the sun is evil!!<br /><br />Got quite a bit done on the house. Fruit patch is now bitchslapped and soil conditioner put in. Fruit has been transplanted so hopefully next year will be fruiting. I started cutting down the Rosa Rugosa bushes and jabbed my hand (through leather gloves no less) on one of the thorns... never thought anything of it until my knuckle swelled up and my hands went purple! Never went for a tetanus 'cos I am scared of needles!!!<br /><br />New kitchen flooring was laid today making the kitchen look 100% better. Had a new bathroom suite fitted, just need to re-skim the walls, tile around bath area and fit an electric shower! New doors are being delivered and fitted tomorrow - this house is costing me sooooo much money and I am not even 5% of the way there!<br /><br />Had a couple of weeks where I was managing my drinking - then they went out of the window. Doing a bit better again.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4171647460311131323?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-53615570653237930802007-04-06T22:48:00.000+01:002007-04-06T23:30:07.366+01:00Been away from here for a couple of reasons, firstly, been on holiday for a week - was a much needed break that, although I couldn't afford it, I <span style="font-weight: bold;">needed</span>!<br /><br />The other, and main reason? A few people I have had the (un)privilege to class as friends in my near past have found kicks in reading about what has happened in my past and tried to use it to take the piss.<br /><br />For those I am speaking to, let me clue you in... This blog, for me is a way of working _MY_ problems out! Theres never been any doubt nor lies between myself and you lot that I have problems... the fact that you all think you are so perfect that you can take the piss just proves how much 'mates' we were! If you don't like what you have read about yourselfs... STOP READING! What you have done is no more clever than a schoolkid reading her friends diary and telling the whole class... The kicker? I have nothing to say to you and nothing to say _ABOUT_ you - it was your choice that we weren't friends anymore... so enjoy- And also, take great pleasure in the fact that in the last week since I found out what you had been saying, i've been drinking seriously again - well done!!<br /><br />Had a good night out last week with a _true_ mate who has never asked for anything other than me being straight up with him...<br /><br />Pissed off post ending, follow up post tomorrow about work done on house and holiday.<br /><br />Oh, and anonymous comments now blocked, so you can stop wasting your time!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5361557065323793080?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-91999683460591349852007-03-19T00:22:00.000Z2007-03-19T00:26:16.204ZRighty ho, big old experiment going on here. I have used my digital camera (so excuse the quality) to do a virtual tour, with speech no less, of my new house. Since this was took all the bushes from the back have been removed and I am well on my way to my bbq area...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/JlYJK-5nXg8"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/JlYJK-5nXg8" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br />It's gonna be a cool house when I am finished, it's just skanky at the moment...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-9199968346059134985?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-75557479817677329052007-03-10T20:57:00.000Z2007-03-10T21:47:22.354ZAgain, an extended period with no blogging... the reason this time? The <a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2007/01/we-fight-currents-in-water-when-we-cant.html">move</a> went through and I am now in my new house - wow, a<span style="font-style: italic;"> HOUSE</span>, not a flat!<br /><br />Moving day was pretty uneventful, except I did it all drunk. Two of my sisters helped with everything and when they went... I was as depressed as hell. I had only visited here on a night and although it looked as though they had used a cream coloured paint - they hadn't! They were both heavy smokers and had blocked all the vents on the windows up so the walls were stained pretty badly and the place<span style="font-weight: bold;"> STUNK! </span>When I had visited, they had both been smoking so I never noticed how bad it smelt...<br /><br />Anyways, 3 weeks on and it's looking (and smelling) 500% better. As a property, it has a <span style="font-style: italic;">lot</span> of potential, especially the garden...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RfMeEIfzH6I/AAAAAAAAACQ/0bB1CGYUYls/s1600-h/garden.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RfMeEIfzH6I/AAAAAAAAACQ/0bB1CGYUYls/s320/garden.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5040405464306884514" border="0" /></a>I am going to rip those conifers on the right hand side down (they are wasting 8ft of decent garden space), clear the mess up at the back (extends another 6 feet past the lawn) and use all that as a barbeque area - already bought a big assed kettle barbeque, weed stopper as a base for flooring and fenced edging. Just need some kind of aggregate now... The bushes on the left hand side, I am going to trim right down.<br /><br />The back bedroom, <span style="font-weight: bold;">MY</span> room was the first to get sorted. This room, along with the gardens, was what sold me on the idea. It's quite a large room so it was flagged straight away as my computer / gym room.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RfMgAIfzH7I/AAAAAAAAACY/Qjs9hu7EHVY/s1600-h/back1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RfMgAIfzH7I/AAAAAAAAACY/Qjs9hu7EHVY/s320/back1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5040407594610663346" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RfMgVIfzH8I/AAAAAAAAACg/xQsshih_e6w/s1600-h/back2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RfMgVIfzH8I/AAAAAAAAACg/xQsshih_e6w/s320/back2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5040407955387916226" border="0" /></a>I'm just waiting on the delivery of a multigym to make it a<span style="font-style: italic;"> real</span> gym area, can get some good training in then.<br /><br />First band practice went ok, we were just drowned out by the drummer and I was shaking like a shitting dog all the way through! Second practice, the drummer was away on work and it went loads better. I had regained a bit of confidence and Gary, the bass player said that from what he was hearing, the band is going to work... <span style="font-style: italic;">very</span> well :-)<br /><br />Still drinking more than I would like, looking to buy either a large <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Liquid_crystal_display_television">LCD</a> or <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DLP">DLP</a> tv as an incentive to stop. I am pushing more towards a DLP because at 45" it's 8" larger than the LCD I can afford and also has more inputs. 3 Scarts, 1 DVI (oh, it's HD ready and I have a HD TV box) and 1 VGA.<br /><br />Right, off to catch up on some blogs!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7555747981767732905?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-17325205354810026142007-01-28T02:29:00.000Z2007-01-28T04:02:47.804ZStill soiling my granny panties about Wednesdays rehearsal - it's been sooooooo fucking long since I have been a part of somebody elses band - I only had myself to answer to in the last lot of years!!<br /><br />I've still been messing on with the production side of music, just to get back to grips with it... My latest 'attempt' is <a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/downfall.mp3"><span style="text-decoration: underline;">THIS </span></a>- The vocals were recorded with me singing into a mic plugged into my laptop hence the slightly 'warbly' sound... I had to use quite a few processing effects to get rid of the hiss and sound of the laptop CPU fan! It is either down to that or the fact that for the first time ever, I have used <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Variable_bitrate">VBR</a> in a mixdown... ?? If there are any musical genii (thats got to be the plural for genius, yes?) out there, could do with some advice :-S<br /><br />Sat with one of my friends ex wife, his daughter and a very good friend of mine called Sue ( she was habitually beaten by her (now ex) husband until one night I told him that the next time he laid a hand on her, he would have me to deal with )... and to me, it seemed there was a bit of ermm... a _thing_ between me and Emma, Kenny's daughter... she is 20 and absoloutely stunning... she makes the women I fantasize about look like short, fat, bald men!!!!<br /><br />Had about 4 hours sleep in the last 36 hours... I suck at sleeping when I need to do it...<br /><br />New boiler is as bad as the old one, still leaking, still only kicks in when it feels like it...<br /><br />Need a multi gym, my free weights take up too much space...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RbwRE20qyOI/AAAAAAAAACE/Nq4qMotH6xQ/s1600-h/bwahh.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RbwRE20qyOI/AAAAAAAAACE/Nq4qMotH6xQ/s320/bwahh.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5024910059372202210" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1732520535481002614?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-42568885823974847942007-01-26T02:02:00.000Z2007-01-26T02:48:20.231ZI've been called all the lucky bastards under the sun lately due to things I have been given for free, such as a Ps 750 laptop, Xbox (broken but I fixed it, giving it to our Anth), an Athlon 3000 PC, a weight bench and decent weight stack, , a P4 3.2 PC, variuos 'old' spec PC's (1.8's etc) and a <a href="http://www.atlascopy.com/cfs/">CISS</a> for my printer. I have also had a lucky time of picking things up for cheap, like a MIDI keyboard for £55, a pocket PC and full GPS SatNav system for £20 and a decent sounding Martin acoustic guitar for £10. I just say, what goes around, comes around. I, over the last few years (well, 35 really) have not been best hit with luck... I occasionally got the odd break - now I am taking advantage of every break I get!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RblnJW0qyLI/AAAAAAAAABg/BP3x8Io8mmg/s1600-h/fweebie.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RblnJW0qyLI/AAAAAAAAABg/BP3x8Io8mmg/s320/fweebie.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5024160269751470258" border="0" /></a>I was given this today for managing to recover all the data from the hard drive. It's not <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fubar">FUBAR</a> but it's not far from. As can be seen, I am trying to re-install XP and it keeps erroring like a beyotch! I am trying between 3 XP install CD's and the same is happening, got to be the HD. Doesn't matter really, it's only a 10 gigger. The laptop is a P2 366 with 128mb ram.. runs nice under XP though... well, at least I could figure from the previous install!!! When all is said and done, it came free to me for services rendered... I can get money back from it :-)<br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;">Absoloutely</span> shitting myself... got my first band rehearsal next Wednesday doing the 3 songs <span style="font-style: italic;">they</span> picked out, they aren't easy songs to sing... I can do nothing else than go and do my best...<br /><br />Still no news about property exchange...<br /><br />... and speaking of property, my deceased mothers 'friend's son has been parking his van right outside of my place... and not carefully. I may be moving but I am still reporting this shithouse for the damage he is causing! I've tried to pull him up twice but selective deafness and <span style="font-style: italic;">really</span> quick driving sets in ;-)<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rblplm0qyMI/AAAAAAAAABo/ljQZgzi5PTg/s1600-h/shithouse1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rblplm0qyMI/AAAAAAAAABo/ljQZgzi5PTg/s320/shithouse1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5024162954106030274" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rblp8G0qyNI/AAAAAAAAABw/7wXTC07X1cY/s1600-h/shithouse.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rblp8G0qyNI/AAAAAAAAABw/7wXTC07X1cY/s320/shithouse.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5024163340653086930" border="0" /></a>Had my new boiler fitted finally... and 2 of the valves leak! I have no luck with my heating! Best is, they've fitted the latest boiler and thermostat... and I have <span style="font-weight: bold;">no</span> idea how to work it :-)<br /><br />Our <a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMaefY9M7I/AAAAAAAAAAU/ioMrCaCB6Ws/s1600-h/Image061.jpg">Anth</a> (my fave nephew!) sent me a text today letting me know he was just about finished paying for our holiday to Lanzarote, bless him :-D<br /><br />Is it wrong to dislike certain close members of your family? I have 2 of them constantly on my back to do things for them, for free no less... when they know I am run off my feet trying to get my life in stock... i still<span style="font-weight: bold;"> love</span> them.. I just don't <span style="font-style: italic;">like</span> them much...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4256888582397484794?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-74143344057114834002007-01-19T00:25:00.000Z2007-01-20T03:09:18.535ZI've got a meeting early doors with my Housing Officer, presumably in regards to my (hopefully) impending house swap. The elderly couple with whom I am arranging the swap came down to take a few measurements today and, with it being the first time Tommy had seen my pad, everything had to be sparkling and prettyful. The good thing is that he was very impressed with everything which is a plus point. The only thing is that now it is becoming a reality, I wonder if I am making a mistake... I was with my Father when he died in this place, I found my Mother when she died in here, I lived with, loved and lost <a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2005/02/its-been-summer.html">Stacey</a> in this place (well, at least thats 1 good thing then!) - ah well, we shall see what tomorrow reaps. After the meeting, I am going to take some photos of the Garden so I can start planning the design of my barbeque...<br /><br />Struggling more and more with my hands. I can no longer touch type as I have so little feeling in the lumps of meat attached to the end of my arms that I have to watch the keyboard and keep glancing at the monitor. I daren't go to my GP for a couple of reasons. Firstly, after the botch job the last butcher did to my <a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/gallery2/main.php?g2_view=core:ShowItem&g2_itemId=153">left hand</a>, i'm scared that they will say my right needs an operation. Secondly, since my nervous breakdown, I have not visited my GP for fear of judgement. My old doctor was a real classy bloke, very friendly and I was scared of what he would have to say about my ermm...<a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2006/11/and-truth-be-told-you-were-start-of-it.html"> mistake</a>... The kicker? He's no longer my GP but I now have several different complaints that I would need to bring up, my hands being the most severe and I have got it into my head that they will think I am swinging the lead.<br /><br />Went to see my brother down his new club today. We had a good chat and he seeems to be in a lot better spirits which is good because he is (not my description) an 'overweight Diabetic with weeping kidney and a history of alcohol abuse'. Not alcohol abuse in the traditional(?) sense but in the sense that due to his size and metabolism, it takes an inordinate amount of alcohol to affect him, hence the now weeping kidney! Being out of work depressed him a lot more than he let on and that was something he could do without. Hopefully the club will go well for him.<br /><br />Just had the greatest ever supper, a bowl of Crunch Nut Cornflakes with Strawberries on... and just for <a href="http://introspectification.blogspot.com/">Murray</a>... a nice picture of the food of the gods :-p<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RbAUym0qyKI/AAAAAAAAABU/J_eEGgj0BQw/s1600-h/yummo.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RbAUym0qyKI/AAAAAAAAABU/J_eEGgj0BQw/s320/yummo.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5021536444165572770" border="0" /></a><br />Had an email from John, the Bass Player in my new band. They had a couple of guitarists and keyboard players to audition but they want to be started in the next couple of weeks. The included 3 tracks for me to start practicing the vocals on...<br /><br />Whitesnake - Fool For Your Loving (not a problem, done this one before)<br />Cheap Trick - I Want You To Want Me (Actually i'd never heard the origional, just crappy pop covers)<br />Gary Moore - Don't Take Me For A Loser (OUCH! Prolonged high vocals... bonus!)<br /><br />Looking forward to giving it a go, just hope I don't disappoint<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7414334405711483400?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-43189956637301471802007-01-15T01:41:00.000Z2007-01-15T01:44:32.080ZWell, no sooner do I post than another attrocity from Youtube gets sent to my website... I am, being a bloke who has worked the doors and plays Ice Hockey, not impartial to a bit of violence... when justified, but this, as the UK is becoming, is just a pisstake!!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/dizO6AebNWQ"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/dizO6AebNWQ" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br /> I am sooo proud to come from this country of thughs and thieves :-S<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4318995663730147180?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-82331647534035236462007-01-15T01:08:00.000Z2007-01-15T01:24:25.623ZBeen out for a few drinks tonight with a few friends of mine. Had an ok night other than the contionious shitty headache I have... well, that and the pain in my hands!<br /><br />A couple of barmaids in my local said they were shocked that I wasn't going clubbing with them tonight. I just didn't want to. I wanted to come home, crack open a good bottle of white (happened to be a Lindemans South Australian, quite sweet, Semillon Chardonay (who could expect an alcoholic of having no taste!)<br /><br />Had an email from the guys who want me to sing in their band asking if I am still interested as they nearly have all the musicians they need.. FUCK YEAH!! Will reply tomorrow when I am at least half sober.<br /><br />Healthy eating is still going quite well. Tomorrow is Fruit Salad and <a href="http://www.kelloggs.co.uk/products/product.asp?id=16">Kellogs Crunch Nut Cornflakes</a> day again - they are the nectar of the gods when it comes to breakfast cereal!<br /><br />Hockey training is still going ok... well, as ok as two seriously arthritic hands and one damaged back can allow. Good thing is that my coach and linemates know what to expect from me. I love my team, I love the game... I know it's coming soon and it will kill me when I have to stop playing!<br /><br />This made me wee a little... so I got changed!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/7_SjOEfWvrI"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/7_SjOEfWvrI" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br />People think that I am doing these because it is so close to my accent and my humour!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8233164753403523646?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-73792642907717242402007-01-14T08:01:00.000Z2007-01-14T08:19:30.418ZMy heating went off again yesterday.<br /><br />I have no hot water and no heating. I had to stay in last night waiting for an engineer that never turned up.<br /><br />The pain in both of my hands is becoming really bad. The only relief I get is when they are numb. Painkillers are no good for anything other than a short buzz.<br /><br />My free<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rabuu20qyII/AAAAAAAAAA8/LG607ubqIj4/s1600-h/laptop.jpg"> laptop</a> is a godsend, I would be lost without it now. It may be lower spec than my previous laptops but it does what I want. Think I will look for a dvd or cd writer for it.<br /><br />Last night I was able to keep a little bit warm by laying in bed with my laptop, watching <a href="http://www.stargateatlantis.com/">Stargate Atlantis</a> - it's quickly becoming a favourite of mine. I am looking forward to Lost, Jericho and The Sopranos resuming, American TV scheduling sucks ass.<br /><br />I have been sleeping way too much lately, sometimes wasting away a whole day.<br /><br />I think I have a gas leak.<br /><br />I have had 4 hours sleep yet don't feel tired... which is contradictory to my previous sentence - hey ho!<br /><br />My brother has finally gotten himself a new club to manage, about time - I was starting to get worried for him.<br /><br />I keep hearing things.<br /><br />Hand hurts, thats it for this post...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7379264290771724240?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-82116535038873054932007-01-12T00:08:00.000Z2007-01-12T02:16:29.870ZSweet baby Jesus H Corbett and the orphans... Blogger is sucking sooooo much lately it's unbelievable. This is the first time I have been able to log into my account for weeks, it just kept rejecting my password. Blogger beta can kiss my hairy white ass!!!<br /><br />Was given a nice little pressie at the weekend. A P3-750 Laptop <span style="text-decoration: underline;"></span>with 20gb hard drive and 192mb ram. The only problem was that the membrane had gone on several of the keys - all I did was plug in an external keyboard and all was good and shiny in the world! I paid £10 for a Wireless Network Adaptor and can now talk on MSN to people whilst evacuating my bowels :-D Best thing was I managed to source a new keyboard for £5 so the whole thing cost me £15 - bonus!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rabuu20qyII/AAAAAAAAAA8/LG607ubqIj4/s1600-h/laptop.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rabuu20qyII/AAAAAAAAAA8/LG607ubqIj4/s320/laptop.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5018961323508811906" border="0" /></a>With my healthy eating regime firmly (well, 'cept for the odd lapse every once and again) in place I have been eating quite a bit of fruit... so I decided instead of eating it all seperately, I would make a decent fruit salad... it was awesome to eat. Apple, Clementine, Grapes (both colours), Blueberries, Cantaloupe Melon, Strawberries, Kiwi Fruit and Passion Fruit... the taste was out of this world!!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rabu7m0qyJI/AAAAAAAAABE/hhoHA-IPBL0/s1600-h/yummy.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/Rabu7m0qyJI/AAAAAAAAABE/hhoHA-IPBL0/s320/yummy.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5018961542552144018" border="0" /></a>The forms are now in for my house swap, just waiting to hear something about it...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8211653503887305493?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-55572342323932275282007-01-04T04:36:00.000Z2007-01-04T04:47:49.909ZFirst post of 2007...<br /><br />No change in anything really. Still drinking too much, still a pariah.<br /><br />Set up my new weight stack. Couple of days training feels sooooo good. I've missed the pain that the day after training gives.<br /><br />Looking forward to moving. The back room in the house is easily enough space to set up a decent office cum gym type situation. Due to my alcohol problem alongside the related problem of not eating I now weigh 13 stone 2. I am in a 32 inch waist which hang very baggy off me (other than my butt, because i've <span style="font-style: italic;">always </span>had a nice ass!). Physically, I look good and get compliments quite a lot... mentally.... ???<br /><br />Having major hand troubles more than ever lately. I have lost 90% of feeling in my right hand - added to the sensationless left hand, thats not good!<br /><br />Got hit on by a majorly fit blonde on NYE. The only problem was that I was'nt sure of her age - and in this town, in this day and age, can be <span style="font-weight: bold;">very</span> dangerous!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5557234232393227528?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-34534493137133459892006-12-28T00:53:00.000Z2006-12-28T01:35:48.221ZThe Madness concert was tremendous. Not as full as the last time I went to see them but still a good gig. I like the fact that there was quite a few of the younger generation there, the age difference went from 5 to 60!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMW8_Y9M6I/AAAAAAAAAAM/HKbNvpZHVjY/s1600-h/Image009.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMW8_Y9M6I/AAAAAAAAAAM/HKbNvpZHVjY/s320/Image009.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5013376047257564066" border="0" /></a>Christmas was better than <a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2005/12/savin-me.html">last year</a>. I spent Christmas Day at my sisters doing music quiz's and whatnot, was a good day. The night I spent in the club with some friends. Boxing day my niece invited me to hers for tea. What a difference a year makes! Santa brought me quite a lot of things, including an electric can opener which will be a blessing as my hands are working less and less these days. I may have to bite the bullet and visit my GP... That was the present that actually brought the biggest smile to my face because it just showed that my sister had <span style="font-style: italic;">thought</span> about me when selecting something and not just picked up a deoderant set or a T-Shirt... My nephew, Anthony (he's my fave, although I know it's wrong to have a favourite) has paid for me and him to go to Lanzarote for a fortnight, all inclusive... he said that after all I had done for him and his brother, this doesn't even go <span style="font-style: italic;">part</span> of the way to re-paying me :-)<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMaefY9M7I/AAAAAAAAAAU/ioMrCaCB6Ws/s1600-h/Image061.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMaefY9M7I/AAAAAAAAAAU/ioMrCaCB6Ws/s320/Image061.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5013379921318065074" border="0" /></a>This was taken in February last year when we went to Magalluf. He's gone a lot more <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XEJDGLF-e18">Emo</a> since this was took :-D<br /><br />Bumped into Vicky over the weekend. Did everything I could to avoid her and not to talk to her.<br /><br />Had a nightmare of a night out yesterday. Kev and his son Mark are both the same, they both basically get paranoid as soon as alcohol has passed their lips... thing is, neither of them can handle themselves... Last night I was holding 2 blokes and 1 girl back from having a go at them!<br /><br />Dreading New Years Eve... got no plans...<br /><br />The heating in my flat decided to stop working on Christmas Eve so it's as cold as shittery in here!<br /><br />Got my Bathroom decorated and the Hallway is half done. Also got a new cream leather 3 piece suite. My flat looks a thousand percent better, it's almost a shame that I should be moving soon!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMeRfY9M8I/AAAAAAAAAAc/bGcRbTfhRYM/s1600-h/2.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMeRfY9M8I/AAAAAAAAAAc/bGcRbTfhRYM/s320/2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5013384096026276802" border="0" /></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMekvY9M9I/AAAAAAAAAAk/M8a9lNBmwlc/s1600-h/3.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_eDqqM00rZgg/RZMekvY9M9I/AAAAAAAAAAk/M8a9lNBmwlc/s320/3.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5013384426738758610" border="0" /></a>I have been thinking about this move more and more and not only do I want to build a decking area and barbecue in the garden, I want to have a greenhouse - I would like to get into experimenting with food more and having a regular supply of vegetables would be great...<br /><br />I suppose i'm just hoping for a fresh start in 2007...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3453449313713345989?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-73562487255234912602006-12-14T03:39:00.000Z2006-12-14T03:43:12.755ZLooks like the house swap may go ahead. All I have to do is clear some rent arrears that came from the 3 weeks I spent in the Mental Care Unit last year... I need a change of scenery, I am going slowly mad here...<br /><br />Going to see <a href="http://www.madness.co.uk/index1.aspx">Madness</a> tomorrow night, saw them once before and they were awesome...<br /><br />Keep relapsing with my drinking, think I may need to seek professional help<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7356248725523491260?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-16655110559534920782006-12-11T00:57:00.000Z2006-12-11T01:03:23.927ZI've been offered a swap on my flat to a two bedroomed house. I've a lot of good memories in this place... but a lot more bad. If this swap doesn't go through, I am going to look for another. I want a garden so that I don't only <span style="font-weight: bold;">go</span> to peoples barbeques, I can <span style="font-style: italic;">hold </span>them as well... I want storage space for all my computer spares and stuff... I want to be away from here and to try and start over...<br /><br />Actually been thinking of moving out of this town...<br /><br />Good hockey game yesterday, we won 17-2..<br /><br />So many people are falling out with me it's unbelievable... and it's made me drink more than I would like...<br /><br />'I've heard that there is 12 steps to getting over this life of mine<br />I'm struggling just to get past one<br />'cos everyday there is always something there that breaks me down<br />and makes me regret the things i've done'<br /><br />penned today, gonna be acoustic I think...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1665511055953492078?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-77377280028328461932006-11-30T05:04:00.000Z2006-11-30T05:10:58.838Z<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger2/8176/1335/1600/167939/DSC01693.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger2/8176/1335/320/963630/DSC01693.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a><br />Just thought I would share that.<br /><br />Bought myself a 2nd dvd recorder today for my bedroom, got it cheap, £30. Panasonic <a href="http://reviews.cnet.com/Panasonic_DMR_E55/4505-9141_7-30673458.html">DMR E55</a>. Couldn't really afford it but at the same time, couldn't really turn it down for the price. Just need to get some DVD RAM discs for time slipping...<br /><br />been drinking for sooooooooooooooo long!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7737728002832846193?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-42536466733162765992006-11-30T00:37:00.000Z2006-11-30T00:39:23.627ZRelapsed again, 2 days non sober at any point.<br /><br />I hate this time of year... and it only gets worse<br /><br />The <a href="http://www.bbspot.com/News/2006/11/home-theater-regulations.html">world</a> is going mad!<br /><br />broke..<br /><br />lonely...<br /><br />thats all!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4253646673316276599?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-62053230762731073702006-11-29T03:46:00.000Z2006-11-29T03:50:03.364ZWOW! since i've been messing about with music again (thats all it will ever be, I don't have the confidence in myself to take it further) i've discovered some of the lyrics I wrote when Stacey left me...<br /><br />'I miss your smell<br />It was what made this house a home<br />Now it's just four walls and memories<br />That I want to escape from<br /><br />The night time is the worst<br />I miss the pressure of your legs on mine<br />Trying to ease your pain, fine by me?<br />Just reminded me that you were there<br /><br />Theres never any clothes on the floor<br />The toilet seat is always down<br />No shoes left in the living room<br /><b>God</b> it hurts not having you around<br /><br />People tell me...<br /><br />as time goes by<br />All your wounds will heal<br />and someone else will take her place<br />You'll find true love<br />and you'll be happy<br /><br />But they will never come close to the way we were<br /><br />You've were always the girl<br />With the hand grenade heart<br />Waiting to explode all your problems<br />and break everything around you into pieces<br />I offered you help, <b>begged</b> you to <i>get</i> help<br />But you always said that you could deal<br />If dealing is letting it ruin the future we had<br />Was that future ever truly real?<br /><br />You left with no real reason<br />Blaming 'little arguments' and your dad<br />'You cant change what he did to me'<br />No I couldn't, but I was there to help<br />Sometimes I wonder if there was someone else<br />Because your reasons make no real sense<br />I KNOW you've had a troubled past<br />I KNOW you were sometimes tense<br /><br />But who better to help to ease the pain<br />And hold you when you sleep<br />Who better to kiss away your fears<br />Who better? cos you didn't choose me<br /><br />You said that when your head is straight<br />you're not promising anything<br />Isn't that just an easy out way of saying<br />not to call you anymore?<br /><br />I had a visit to my hospital bedside last night<br />Vicky of all people<br />She can visit, yet you can't?<br />You can't even phone to see how I am?<br />Funny how things go round in circles<br />Funny how you show me your true feelings<br /><br />As time goes by<br />My wounds will heal and someone else will take your place<br />i'll find true love one day<br />and I'll be happy<br />I'm even starting to forget your face...'<br /><br />This was wrote when I was in Ward 15 last year, just after the cock-juggling thundercunt fucked me over... more to be posted tomorrow if the dumbshit Blogger Beta will let me in!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-6205323076273107370?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-84627444187834200702006-11-29T02:48:00.000Z2006-11-29T02:58:33.654ZBlogger beta is a big giant piece of shit, this is the first time I have been able to log in and make a post for ages and whatnot!! Think I may have to figure a way to go back to 'old skool' blogger...<br /><br />The lonelier I feel, the more I watch Garden State - goodfuckinggod I am a walking cliche!!<br /><br />Still, great movie<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/pHAXSoX8LwQ"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/pHAXSoX8LwQ" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br /><a href="http://raymitheminx.blogspot.com/2006/11/this-is-my-mom-at-our-condo-for-first.html">Raymi</a> just rules so much, if she doesn't clean up at the blog awards there is something wrong! AND! her mum is a hottie as well, easy to see where her 'coquetishness' comes from...<br /><br />Is it still wrong for me to want <a href="http://www.drunkenstepfather.com/index.php/2006/11/28/i-am-britney-spears-upskirt-of-the-day-2/">Britney</a> to realise it's _ME_ that she wants??<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8462744418783420070?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-54883736128278612382006-11-24T01:43:00.000Z2006-11-24T01:49:44.525ZHad a couple of people via email and <a href="bigsexygav@yahoo.com">msn</a> telling me to stop being so insecure about my voice - I can't help the way I am... I have been kicked sooooo many times when I am down that I take it as a given...<br /><br />Had an email from the 2 guy's wanting to do the rock band thing, it goes...<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">' Hi Gav </span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">Just a short note to thank you again for coming across to see us yesterday. As blind dates go it wasn't too bad. We both felt quite positive about both our meetings yesterday and we're going to trawl the net and the yellow papers over the weekend to see if we can find a lead guitar and maybe a keyboard. </span><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">So we'll keep in touch'</span><br /><br />so that looks quite hopeful.<br /><br />I need to get something going on in my life other than Hockey. I spend 95% of my time sat alone in my apartment, in front of the computer listening to music...<br /><br />Hockey and Music, thats all I have at the moment...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5488373612827861238?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-77246268060514065972006-11-23T03:40:00.000Z2006-11-23T03:58:36.654ZMet with the guys from the band and their parting words were 'Well, we have a good vibe from you, we will be in touch' - i've been fucked over so many times that I am reading that as a 'dont call us...' Shame as well, they had some good songs picked out!<br /><br />Not been a good boy when it comes to the hooch, just got nothing going on in my life to make my care about what my 'addiction' could bring to me<br /><br />Stacie phoned me tonight and hung up straight away. Then she sent me a text asking who it was at the number she had phoned, needless to say, I didn't answer... that girl seriously pisses me off!!!!<br /><br />Last night at the Charity gig, I kept getting the feeling that Michelle (Elaines daughter) was interested in me... self delusion is apparently my new hobby...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-7724626806051406597?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-25430434796648633012006-11-22T02:39:00.000Z2006-11-22T02:50:11.346ZMy new creed in life is to not live in the past... or the future... What has happened... <span style="font-weight: bold;">HAPPENED! </span>and what is to come...? well, thats just a different story... a story that is waiting to be written, but this time, written the right way!<br /><br />So I opened a <a href="http://www.myspace.com/bsg_7">Myspace</a> account... purely for my musical outlet... fucking _shame_ I did the wrong thing and opened a normal one!! My one saviour is that there is a plug in that will let me play my 'music?' on my space... I'm going to meet with a drummer and bass player tomorrow, they like the sound of my voice (good god there is some tone deaf people out there!!) and they are wanting to do 70's and 80's rock... Thin Lizzy, Rainbow etc...<br /><br />Still playing about with recording on my PC, bought a Yamaha keyboard, <a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/cars.mp3">THIS</a> is my latest effort, would appreciate any comments... I just need some affirmation that I am not wasting my time and money....<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;"></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2543043479664863301?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-23368574068634198132006-11-18T05:43:00.000Z2006-11-18T05:59:11.398ZLast year I tried to commit suicide - and now I feel so fucking small to the people who know me, and know what I did... and the worst of it? I know that the reason's I had were bullshit... yes, I lost both my parents and my fiance, thats still no excuse... since then I have lost 2 uncles, my 26 year old niece and a brother and I have showed no signs of grief, much less anything else...<br /><br />I have burned <span style="font-style: italic;">so</span> many bridges over the last few years that I wonder if I will ever be able to make amends. I just wish that people like Ste Currell, Bob Gibbon, Ste Boagey and Les Barker knew that despite what they think, I am not the person they think I am, i'm just somebody who, through circumstances, happens(ed!) to have an alcohol problem and is trying like <span style="font-weight: bold;">FUCK</span> to sort it out - and that I still need them in my life... we were all friends for so long that it kills me to see them walk past me and give me dirty looks, or to hear about comments they make to other people. Truth be told, out of the origional gang, the only one left is Paul, a DJ in a local club... he has never judged me for what I tried to do (in fact, he visited me in the mental care ward) or for what has happened since - but then again, he has been through similiar... but without the nervous breakdown!<br /><br />I need <span style="font-style: italic;">something</span> soon, I don't think I have ever felt so alone in my life...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2336857406863419813?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-22959153393859269652006-11-18T04:16:00.000Z2006-11-18T04:46:34.338ZHad an email from the guys who are looking to start a band... they like my voice and want to arrange a meeting with me, them and a potential guitarist. I want to... no, I <span style="font-style: italic;">need </span>to get back into the music scene - i've fuck all else going on in my life at the moment but the love of music... and singing!<br /><br />Still getting indigestion but not as much - changed my diet back to low carb and it seems to ease things... I know it's an ulcer and that drinking excaserbates them... I have cut back as much as I can at the moment, if Mr Ulcer doesn't like it - he can kiss my arse until I can do better!!<br /><br />Just watched a documentary on Britney Spears and although not being one of the 'teeny bopper' generation, I can appreciate that the girl has talent. Stacey, my ex, hated Britters because I always found her as sexy as fuck... it seems that most haters of Mrs (EX TO BE) Federline are women who are jealous that her squeaky clean (YEAH RIGHT!) image is attractive to men...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger2/8176/1335/1600/823016/britney.spears.04l.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/x/blogger2/8176/1335/320/748456/britney.spears.04l.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Me and Adobe Audition are getting along well, not only can I arrange music and record vocals with it - it is a complete musical editing suite including reverbs, compressors and every other piece of equipment I paid a giant amount of money for last year. I am planning on recording a couple fo songs so watch this space... it will happen but I have that much work on trying to get my whole flat decorated for Christmas - there may not be anybody here to share it with me but this year, I am going to have a 'proper' Christmas in my flat...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2295915339385926965?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-22242709411510849372006-11-10T16:44:00.000Z2006-11-10T16:53:34.111ZBeen having the old problem of continous indigestion again lateyl. Change of diet isn't helping this time and neither are antacids. The only thing that helps is to cough up / spit up the contents of my stomach... and <span style="font-weight: bold;">this</span> is what I get!<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger2/8176/1335/1600/DSC01688.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger2/8176/1335/320/DSC01688.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>Pretty, no? Worst thing I could have done though is a google search. I pulled up <a href="http://www.cancerhelp.org.uk/help/default.asp?page=4486">THIS</a> - and out of the 7 symptons it provides, I have . It, along with hiatus hernia and severe ulcer are apparently the 3 most likely diagnosis'<br /><br />Been messing about with a few music programs, getting the feel for them. Mainly <a href="http://www.adobe.com/products/audition/">Adobe Audition 2</a> and <a href="http://www.propellerheads.se/">Propellerheads Reason 3</a>. I reckon I will soon be writing again.<br /><br />'cross out these days<br />on the calendar<br />it hurts me so much<br />and im not quite sure<br />i care anymore'<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-2224270941151084937?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-19025981871099920182006-11-05T18:58:00.000Z2006-11-05T19:05:44.210ZLooks like I may be ressurecting my singing career. A local drummer and Bass Player are wanting to start a cover band doing 70's and 80's rock so i'm arranging an audition with them. I've never really had much confidence in my voice even though I get told all teh time I have a good one. Been doing bits of songwriting again, thinking of buying myself some kit again, keyboard, multitrack (or decent soundcard) etc<br /><br /><a href="http://www.cleveland-comets.co.uk/test1.mp3">This</a> was the last song I was working on... it's called 'Prowl' and pretty much sucks...<br /><br />Been searching for a program that will cover the guitar work for me because I can't play for shit. Not finding anything useable.<br /><br />I'm doing the wrong thing again and jonesing over a barmaid - always felt that she dig's me, in fact, Stacey used to hate her for that reason, she always reckoned the same but hey, what does that clueless bitch know (other than accusing people of doing stuff to give her life some drama)<br /><br />Need vodka - I just do...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-1902598187109992018?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-35208751598264162292006-11-03T05:42:00.000Z2006-11-03T05:56:27.517ZFor the last few weeks I have kept my alcohol intake down to what could be considered normal. That changed today... I have drunk a litre of Smirnoff blue label vodka... and I don't want to stop - I have a full wine rack that I know I could nail before daybreak...<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger2/8176/1335/1600/DSC01687.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer;" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/blogger2/8176/1335/320/DSC01687.jpg" alt="" border="0" /></a>with that in mind, I am going to bed because if I open one bottle, the full rack will go bye bye...<br /><br />Ha, just noticed the whole scruffy look of my kitchen - that is because I am in the middle (been here for a while) of decorating... and the 'medicinal' bottles you see, that is half of the medication I am on!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3520875159826416229?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-41263142629252113182006-11-03T03:48:00.000Z2006-11-03T05:37:54.389ZSometimes I wonder why I even bother... why do I even try to be nice to people when I never see any kindness in return? Why do I make a point of standing up for 'friends' when I know that when the shit hits the fan, I will have no one by my side... especially those 'friends' I previously stood up for!<br /><br />Why do I keep a blog when I don't know if anyone reads it? I origionally started this as a method of getting the anger out... and I do occasionally read over my previous entries to see changes I have made... or, as is now the case, relapses I have made!<br /><br />I no longer care, it is apparently a standard agreement that me and 'life' have that each close friend I make, fucks me over - I could overanalyse this and assume _I_ was to blame - except that I know that isn't the truth. Sometimes I can be blatantly, nay, brutally honest when it comes to peoples faults and flaws - it's down to the way I have been treat by, not friends but acquantences over the years, and it is the way I will always be. Ball's to 'em I say, I just think they are jealous of the fact that I can be so open and honest about what I think... fuck 'em all!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4126314262925211318?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-40476667283968143892006-11-03T01:49:00.000Z2006-11-03T02:16:13.387ZFound out tonight that ste and the rest of them were in 'our' normal haunt, Chicago Rock... nice of the invite.. hell, even some aknowledgement would have been a start! I am sick to my back teeth of being the one 'friend' who gets fucked over by the rest... think it's time to stop being the <span style="font-style: italic;">pretendy</span> nice guy that I do to people and get back to what I do best - treat the fuckers like they treat me!<br /><br />For the last two nights <a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2005/08/let-it-bleed.html">Stacie</a> has been talking to me on MSN and every time the subject ended up the same - wanting to know how I felt, how I <span style="font-style: italic;">feel</span> about her... last night she was texting me after she had gone offline asking the same. Tonight I told her that I do still have feelings for her. All she does is bitch about how badly her boyfriend treats her and how unhappy she is... and yet she is still with him - it's the <a href="http://bsg7.blogspot.com/2005/12/no-it-isnt.html">Vicky</a> situation all over and that I DO NOT want... What didn't help was she changed her display name to 'if you love me, let me know... if you dont, let me go...'<br /><br />The highlight of my day / night has been to flash my PSP to play downloaded games without pissing about running loader programs - woofuckinghoo! I am so excited that I may just pee myself... /sarcasm<br /><br />WOW! <a href="http://www.dawnyang.com/">This girl</a> is TEH HOTTNESS!! < style="font-weight: bold;">THIS is the highlight now!<br /><br />To non english people, these are probably not gonna make sense, but to us Brits, especially us tessiders, they are damn funny!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/96PkTGNEblU"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/96PkTGNEblU" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/GoKyGWx1v7E"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/GoKyGWx1v7E" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4047666728396814389?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-85875792999242798382006-11-01T16:04:00.000Z2006-11-01T16:06:51.175ZWell, another fairweather friend bites the Dust. Saw Stee today in the shop and he never said a single word to me. Last week I sent them all texts to see if we were out on the Thursday and got no reply. Running motif for my blog - FUCK EM ALL!<br /><br />Money is looking bad again.<br /><br />Drinking...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-8587579299924279838?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-34719274520369119522006-11-01T01:57:00.000Z2006-11-01T02:03:02.019ZSeriously got <span style="font-weight:bold;">nothing</span> going on in my life, personal <span style="font-style:italic;">or</span> professional.<br /><br />Not seen Stee since he flew back from Magalluf. Finding it hard to get motivated to do any decorating... or anything!<br /><br />Had a slight relapse on the alcohol front and have been drinking a little more than I would like. I have tried to keep it down to a few drinks on a night when I am sat at my computer - it's just not working...<br /><br />Had a hockey game against the Newcastle Predators on Saturday. We won, 9-7 - all down to Bull scoring 4 goals. I scored a nice wraparound. Lately it seems that hockey is the only thing I am enjoying...<br /><br />"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves, that's why, if you actually find someone you care about... it's important to let go of the little things - even if you can't let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone... no matter how many people are around you"<br /><br />Scrubs rules...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3471927452036911952?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-45565750794724402362006-10-26T00:05:00.000+01:002006-10-26T00:55:26.528+01:00Other than one occurence, Magalluf was pure quality.<br /><br />We flew out the Tuesday night and had a good night out, next morning, both mine and Neils phone were ringing off the hook. Seems that Trading Standards had raided Stee's house at 9 on the Wednesday morning, not only for the tracksuits and trainers he was selling but also for copied DVD's. He seems to think that it is his ex wife, nicola who has grassed him up!<br /><br />Me, Neil and the 3 girls had an excellent couple of days. Neil reckoned that Lindsay had took a shine to me - wasn't something that I saw though. She's one of the funniest women I have ever met, and she has gorgeous eyes...<br /><br />Sacked the Ice Hockey Coaching Programme off - had enough of getting attitude from a supposed mate in regards to a website I have ran for 6 years, at no profit!<br /><br />Saw Bob, my ex training partner yesterday down the town - he walked past a newspaper shop as me and our Anth came out, saw me and quickly looked away... fucking tosser is the same as most others... if a 'friend' has some personal problems, turn against them!!<br /><br />forgot to take my camera to Magalluf, i'm a numpty... mind you, thinking of going back out there next month for the BCM big blowout party - should be fun!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-4556575079472440236?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-57734650010503371002006-10-17T01:45:00.000+01:002006-10-17T01:51:46.803+01:00Well, today is the day... off to sunny (well, sunny compared to where I am at the moment) Magalluf.<br /><br />If I actually thought anybody read this now would be the time I would apologise for the lack of updates!<br /><br />Ask a ninja on YouTube - so cool...<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/OpTaBulIL_w"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/OpTaBulIL_w" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><br /><br />Another treasure on YouTube. Your typical English twat sputing bollocks in Magalluf... and no, it's not me! It's long but worth it, just to see what a complete cock he makes of himself!<br /><br /><object width="425" height="350"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/_uooIcyEAPg"></param><param name="wmode" value="transparent"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/_uooIcyEAPg" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" wmode="transparent" width="425" height="350"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-5773465001050337100?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-36648699812023552762006-10-16T01:12:00.000+01:002006-10-16T01:21:46.633+01:00Two days 'til I visit the land that is known as Magalluf. Found out the other day that 3 girls I know are going tomorrow! Ah well, should be a laugh...<br /><br />Since I have cut my drinking down I have found that people react to me a lot better, that's an incentive if there ever was one - I know I was a complete arse when I was 24/7 drunk...<br /><br />+44's new stuff is great, loving them (+44 are mainly Mark Hoppus and Travis Barker - Ex Blink 182) - sorta got a blink sound but with catchier riffs... still listening to Blink, listening to aVa and now +44, god bless musical differences - gives us, the average listener, more choice of the same style - s'all good<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-3664869981202355276?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10944496.post-1160762490376120302006-10-13T18:58:00.000+01:002006-10-13T18:57:21.239+01:00YAY! Going to Magalluf on Tuesday for Stee's birthday. 3 of us are going, £147 all inclusive... can't wait!!!<br /><br />Nothing of any interest has happened lately other than I bought a PSP as a reward for not drinking in excess. They are pretty cool...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/10944496-116076249037612030?l=bsg7.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>bsghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04703606317455349303noreply@blogger.com0