Dying in your arms

Went to the club to see a hypnotist tonight, was an ok night. Bumped into my brother coming out and as usual, he had to try and put me down, fuck him, it's not me who has the problem, it;s him who is insecure to the point where he has to try and embarrass me...

Still lonely, need to at least _be_ with somebody for a few moments to get rid of this feeling... for a while

Going to the Citizens Advice Beruea romorrow about filing for Bankruptcy.

I hate my life at the moment, I have nothing worthwile going on - and yet I pretend to people that I do!

' I'm wearing thin wearing out becoming weak
Holding hands with this rope she's my self-destructive
Bleeding disease the things that makes it hard to breathe
But if I shoved you far away
This addict just starved again asphyxiated
And now I see it's you that's tearing me ensnaring me
This is my dying in your arms I cut you out now set me free
Lynched high above what used to be
In her gallows built for me
So I escaped cut this noose around my
Neck I break free to see the things you blinded me
And I shoved you far away
Now I live the life I dreamed of
You're dead to me
You poisoned my life
So I take this knife
And I cut you out
Cut you out'