Smashed into pieces

AGAIN! ffs, i've told Amanda 'til I am blue in the face how the situation stands and yet she still keeps hassling me. I have given her no reason to expect anything from me, yet she still does... I hate to do it but the only option is to not speak to her...

Looks like nobody is out tonight, oh joy... might have to just go up the club then down the town after...

need some action, had none for a week, need some random...

'never again
i'll slit my throat
with the knife i pulled out of my spine
maybe when you find out that i'm dead
you'll realize what you did to me

and if my lungs still let me breathe,
will you be there for me?
if i can make myself believe,
i'll give you back what you took away

no, i wont let it go
douse myself in gasoline
so don't
save me when you come into the fire
i'd rather die
than have to see your smile

and if my lungs still let me breathe,
will you be there for me?
if i can make myself believe,
i'll give you back what you took away

you made me swear
you made me swear

i, i can't sleep
realize all these things that you took from me

smash my heart (you made me swear)
into dust (you made me swear)
suffocate my mind (you made me swear)
tear at me from inside (you made me swear)

smash apart what you created
how can i ever stop you from
crushing my soul?
it was, it was yours to begin with

and if my lungs still let me breathe,
will you be there for me?
if i can make myself believe,
i'll give you back what you took away'