I'd rather have a bottle in front of me than a frontal lobotomy...

Just watched a documentary on alcoholism - saw a lot of myself in it... other than I NEVER HAD AN ABUSIVE CHILDHOOD!!

Fuck, why do they always try to blame that... if it's not that it's a genetic predisposition. Neither my mother nor my father were 'addicted to the hooch'...

Fuck the excuses and reasons they come up with... for me, my alcoholism comes from circumstances... I lost my father 10 years ago and I didn't grieve 'cos I wanted to be strong for my mother, I lost my mother 2 years ago and I didn't grieve cos I wanted to be strong for Stacey, Stacey completely fucked me over for no other reason than she is a cock juggling thundercunt - a year and a half ago and my life went to shit... and I still grieve - for everything that happened. Ward 15, the 'mental' ward, continued self abuse (alcoholism, self harm, occasional substance abuse) and do you know what? Those fuckers who make the programs on UK documentary don't have the slightest clue about the subject they campaign about because THEY HAVEN'T BEEN THERE!!!!11 They rely on the word of what are now B List celebrities to tell them about the hell that they suffered when drinking due to the pressure of the millions they were making - FUCK THAT!! Try speaking to some people with real problems instead of arselicking round your 'celebrities'!!!