Medicate me again, so I fall away...

Since I developed my alcohol problem I have let so many people down, either through things I have promised to do and not or through things I have not done as they should be done.

I have lost friends, business colleague's and the respect of a lot of people... and 99% of the time, I put the blame on them

A good friend of mine told me last night that he had been speaking to Linda who works at a place I used to do computer work for and she said that I was a very good lad until I hit the drink, then I became a waste of space...

All of my life I have tried to be a decent bloke - one of those people whom everybody likes... and yet I have always been the exact opposite. I am apparently not a likeable person in the way that people always call me behind my back - thats the kind of person I must be... I know I am called because other people take great joy in telling me.

I only have a small amount of vodka in my house and when that is gone, I am going to do my damndest to go, not so much cold turkey, but luke warm turkey... I am still gonna try and make a Sunday and Thursday night out but the rest of the time... here comes the scary word... SOBER!

I have turned into someone I do not like (not that I have ever really liked myself)