A year under the influence...

One way or another, every day of this year I have been 'on a high', be it alcohol (lots of), prescribed medication or any other means, I have not had a 'sober' night this year... I know it's not doing me any good, but it is doing what I want, it's killing the pain I have in my soul and in my heart. I can honestly say that I have never been the kind of person who could give myself away to one person... I was your typical male whore, giving any female who looked at me, whatever she wanted... that was until 'whatsername' - I gave her everything that I could, everything she wanted, and yet that wasn't enough for her, she is the reason I have a drink problem (yes, I admit that I have a problem) but does she care? i should be so fucking lucky!!

' Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
Remember, whatever
It seems like forever ago
The regrets are useless
In my mind
She's in my head
I must confess
The regrets are useless
She's in my head
From so long ago'