I finally know now what I should have known then

Been to see my GP today and she said it out loud... I am an alcoholic. I also had the pleasure of being told that the operation on my left wrist didn't work and I still have a non union scaphoid fracture... glad all the pain I have been through was for nothing!!

Got my new car, the Vectra SRI. Fast as fuck... and off the road. I was lied to about about the length of test on it and the condition it is in! It cost me basically every penny of the insurance money I got from my old car and then some!! New tyres all round (still needs one at the front, just can't afford it), exhaust, brakes all the way round... my cheap car has turned out to be not so cheap...


Shiny and pretty though isn't she....

Alcohol intake? Not so good, in fact a lot worse than it has been for quite a while. If i try to stop or cut back I get what can only be described as a tremor through my body... and it's not a nice feeling - the cure? More alcohol...

Booked in for an endoscopy next month to find out why I can't keep food down, why I keep vomitting blood and why I get indigestion so much and so badly... pretty much a given what the result is!


Tribunal for incapacity is next month, Halloween no less... Citizens Advice Bereau are representing me and reckon I have good merit for appeal... the 'Doctor' I spoke to has made note that I am an 'occasional social drinker only' and that I 'have no problems with depression'... ooh!! I also 'claimed to have had a nervous breakdown'!?!?! 2 weeks in a mental care unit doesn't proive that?? If that bloke was a real doctor i'm a fucking astronaut!!!