Meant to live

Trashed a bottle of extra strong Polish vodka between me and our Anth last night then went to the snooker club. Was a cracking laugh but I feel shitty for what I ate yesterday... I should really learn that I need to stick to low carb :-/

Dreamt about her again last night and yet I still can't picture her face... I can picture her mum's face, her stepdad's face, all of her brothers and their girlfriends... but I can't picture her...

' Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he’s meant for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside'