Write your soul down word for word, see who's your friend, and who is kind

Away again for soooooo long, meh!

The charity gig went really well, we raised £700 for the Hartlepool Hospice, which is a place Cancer patients go in their final days. only 5 members of my 9 million strong family turned out and quite a lot of 'friends' who said they were coming never bothered. Who gives a shit, we enjoyed it, went down really well and made money for a deserving charity so HOO RAH! The only semi negative comments we got were that we need to play more 'commercial' stuff - which I have been saying from Accidental Angels inception!

Mandy has been round a couple of times and I could tell that she wants a lot more from me than I am willing, or even able, to give. There was no real spark from her, she was just like any random I can, and have brought home lately, and I think she deserves better than that - so i've told her that it's not going to happen...

Had a text message from a 'friend' of mine tonight letting me know that Vicky has been asking about me and how I am doing - thats a road I don't want to, indeed, CAN'T go down again - she is happy in a relationship (as far as I know).

Christmas shopping completed, wrapped and stored away.

Front room decorating coming on. Nearly fully stripped and half filled. Should be ready for Christmas, hopefully - even if a basic paint job.

One thing i've learnt is that an alcoholic can never be a 'social' drinker. I have had a couple tonight and at the moment, know that if I had some in my house, I would have more. Tomorrow I will again have to fight the urge to go and buy some alcohol, be it vodka or whatever is at hand in my local. I am going to have one last night tomorrow and then abstinate totally. Monday is my D-Day, drop the drink, for good, start training again and eat well again. fingers crossed :-S