Life on Standby

"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves, that's why, if you actually find someone you care about... it's important to let go of the little things - even if you can't let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone... no matter how many people are around you"

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Wishful thinking

Vicky's car hasn't been parked at her boyfriends for about 4 days now... I know it's horrible fot me to say but... I hope they have split up... there is something there, and she has always been my one, after Beth, before 'whatsername'... during 'whatsername'... I still think we have some distance together to travel!

'Listen to the waves
Everything communicates
Will it ever be
Anything more
Than wishful thinking?
Oh no there you go
Looked away and
Missed the show
How much time
Will you survive?

Feel the blades of grass
How it brings you back
It will always be
Only as green
As you can see

Oh no there you go
Looked away and
Missed the show
How much wasted time
Will you survive?
Oh yeah fooled again
I don't know how
And I don't know when
Not much else to blame
But wishful thinking

Little breakdowns
In coastal towns
They come suddenly
Crashing over you
They come easily
I'm falling
Through the skies
And frozen places

Oh no there you go
Looked away and
Missed the show
How much wasted time
Will you survive
Oh yeah fooled again
I don't know how
And I don't know when
Not much else to blame
But wishful thinking

And I try to realise
That I needn't look
Any further
The whole of
The universe
Is plain to see
And I try not to rely
On another world
Or the future
The whole of
The universe
Is a mystery

And it gets me over
Yeah it gets me over
And it gets me over
Yeah it gets me over you'

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

My eyes burn

Started doing a bit of work around the house yesterday, done all of my ironing and stripped of the wallpaper in the hallway - I thinkit's about time I got a grip of myself...

Thats is, interesting life I am leading at the moment eh? Hopefully will have something better to blog about soon, t'is the start of the weekend tomorrow (providing I can get some money together)

'My eyes burn from these tears
You think you’d learn over these years
Good things won’t last forever

So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things that I couldn’t give to you
And you had it all anyway

So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

Tell me i'm wrong when I say
I can’t expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment

I take back everything i've said
You would those words on you lips
As if they meant anything anyway

Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don’t know if it’s worth me loosing sleep over this

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

Tell me I’m wrong when I say it
I can’t expect you to stay forever with me
I live for the single moment

So take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn’t there in the first place'

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Lovers and Liars

Pretty un-memorable weekend, no action, nothing to report...

Still not sorted on the money front, still living day by day...

Still lonely, still borderline alcoholic...

I need something, and yet I don't know what?

But not Amanda, she takes schizo to a whole new level...

'Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
You're so untouchable.
I'm oh-so-terrible at this.
I'm terrible at this, you know.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

And I bet you've got every word I said memorized in your head.
And you'll use every one of them against me.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
Tell all your friends about me.
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

I hope you choke on every word you spoke
when you were screaming at me.
I realize how many times you tried, but that's wishful thinking.
All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me.
Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me.
Tell all your friends about me.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.
Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry'