and more...

I liked her, I really did

It's 4 in the afternoon and I have been drunk for 3 hours

My car is dead

Blue and yellow

Stacie came round on wednesday night and we got closer than we have ever been... but it didn't happen.

Thursday was hectic. Amanda, the sweaty little schizo bitch jumped a couple of lasses in chicage, one of them got arrested... I gave a copper some lip, and still ended up alone...

Last night, Stacie was out with her 'friend' Hailey, we all ended up back here, me, Stacie, Hailey and Stee and it ended up with Stacie and Hailey kissing while I was laid next to them... WTF???????? It was prono material... without the invitation for me!

Today she said I was immature because I wouldn't speak to her... the 3 times she spoke to me last night in the nightclub was to ask for drinks - and she can't understand how I feel like I am being fucked about! Anyhoo's, she's now a goner. Anyone will do tonight!

'it's all in how you mix the two
and it starts just where the light exists
it's a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it
it won't come your way, yeah

i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste some time with you

well you never would've thought in the end
how amazing it feels just to live again
it's a feeling that you can not miss
and it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

well you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it
it won't come your way, yeah

i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste some time with you

i should've said something, but i've said it enough
by the way, my words are fading
i'd rather waste some time with you

waste some time with you..

i should've done something, but i've done it enough
by the way, your hands were shaking
i'd rather waste my time with you

i should've said something, but i've said it enough
by the way, my words are fading
i'd rather waste my time with you

waste some time with you..'

Can't take it

I give in... I really do. I texted Stacie last night to ask her what we were and how we stood and got no reply. Today she sent me a text asking if I wanted to do something tonight, I said yes and heard nothing until about an hour ago when she asked me to pick her up at 11 tonight... with it being wednesday, I don't plan on being sober at that time - wednesday was always my night in. She replied to my text by saying 'lets just fucking leave it then, your loss'.

Balls to it, tomorrow I am gonna bring a dirty slapper home!

'You speak to me and
I know this will be temporary
You ask to leave,
but I can tell you that I've had enough

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough
to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

Step up to me
I know that you've got something buried
I'll set you free
You set conditions, but I've had enough

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough
to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

Come back home, won't you come back now?
You're stepping lines, you got a lot to prove
It comes and goes
Yeah, it comes and goes
A step in time, yeah it's a lot to move
I know this will be temporary
I know this will be temporary
I know this will be, but I've had enough

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough
to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go

I can't take it
This welcome is gone and I've waited long enough
to make it
and if you're so strong
you might as well just do it alone
And I'll watch you go'

Of all the gin joints in all the...

Been seeing a bit of Stacie and I like her. She is fit, funny and doesn't seem to be schizo! Nothing has happened yet, and to be honest, I am not sure how we stand... are we seeing each other? Are we friends? She made a comment on Sunday that she liked me more than I like her... gonna ask her tonight... via text message cos I am a wimp :-D

Amsterdam was pretty cool, if a little smelly.

nothing else.

I'm done.

'You only hold me up like this
Cause you don't know who I really am
Sometimes I just want to know what it's like to be you

We're making out inside crashed cars
We're sleeping through all our memories
I used to waste my time dreaming of being alive (now I only waste my time dreaming of you)

Turn off the lights and turn off the shyness
All of our moves make up for the silence
And oh, the way your makeup stains my pillowcase
Like I'll never be the same

I've got headaches and bad luck but they couldn't touch you
I'm not trying
You only hold me up like this'