Savin' Me

Well, my Christmas Day experience consisted of seeing no-one other than my brother in law who wanted to borrow two chairs and my Brother, who's I went for lunch at - i'm glad that christmas is a fucking family experience :-/ ... Apparently Ally and John went round everyones house... Thank you _very_ fucking much, I live 2 minutes away and yet you couldn't call in here... good job I was here to borrow 2 chairs from! God forbid your loving guests had nowhere to sit!

Went up the club tonight and got major ballache over a couple of favours I done for someone... I am fucking sick of getting kicked in the arse for doing favours for people... I went off it with the guy involved... but he was lucky it didn't go further!

Kev started his same old shit tonight... fuck him, fuck _everybody_... I am sick of playing 'nicely. nicely' with people who aren't worth the fucking effort! Gonna go back to the loner I was before... at least that way there is no heartache and no people wanting things for free, done for free and 100% support from me for _doing_ the things for them for free...

Stacie sent me a text yesterday thanking me for not wishing her a happy christmas and saying her older brother had died... I didn't know she had one... and couldn't care less anyways! Friday she kept coming up to me and kissing me... then walking up to random lads and doing the same... so I told her to kiss my arse and fuck off! She's nothing but a big giant waste of space.

Going up the Manor tomorrow and maybe Friday, then that is it. I'm sick of it all...

' Prison gates won’t open up for me
On these hands and knees I’m crawlin’
Oh, I reach for you
Well I’m terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can’t hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I’m callin’
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I’m fallin’

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Heaven’s gates won’t open up for me
With these broken wings I’m fallin’
And all I see is you
These city walls ain’t got no love for me
I’m on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I’m callin’
And all I need from you
Hurry I’m fallin’

Show me what it’s like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I’ll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I’ll leave this life behind me
Say it if it’s worth saving me

Hurry I’m fallin’