Every step I take I leave a small piece of myself behind

Looks like the house swap may go ahead. All I have to do is clear some rent arrears that came from the 3 weeks I spent in the Mental Care Unit last year... I need a change of scenery, I am going slowly mad here...

Going to see Madness tomorrow night, saw them once before and they were awesome...

Keep relapsing with my drinking, think I may need to seek professional help

The days are drifting away from me

I've been offered a swap on my flat to a two bedroomed house. I've a lot of good memories in this place... but a lot more bad. If this swap doesn't go through, I am going to look for another. I want a garden so that I don't only go to peoples barbeques, I can hold them as well... I want storage space for all my computer spares and stuff... I want to be away from here and to try and start over...

Actually been thinking of moving out of this town...

Good hockey game yesterday, we won 17-2..

So many people are falling out with me it's unbelievable... and it's made me drink more than I would like...

'I've heard that there is 12 steps to getting over this life of mine
I'm struggling just to get past one
'cos everyday there is always something there that breaks me down
and makes me regret the things i've done'

penned today, gonna be acoustic I think...