Life on Standby

"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves, that's why, if you actually find someone you care about... it's important to let go of the little things - even if you can't let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone... no matter how many people are around you"

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

It's funny when you find the words to say, you find no reply

Round two of the 'stone cold sober' experiment started 2 and a half days ago. I managed to get through it without the withdrawal symptoms this time. I need to do this because my health is getting worse...

My car went in for her test last week and failed. I cost me basically every single penny I had to get it roadworthy and road legal. Next project is to modify it to look a little different, and I hope that now i'm not spending every single penny on alcohol, I can do it.

When you have nothing it's easy not to care, because you have nothing to lose. Through alcoholism I lost a lot of money, friends, my health and very nearly my family. I know myself there is only so much help you can give someone, even siblings, before you give up and cut the cords.

Hands are worse these days, I was given the news last Doctors visit that the bone graft I had 4 years ago hasn't worked.

Traded some of my Xbox 360 games in yesterday. I went slightly mad when I got it and bought games I have only played once and either couldn't play, or didn't like. They gone now - All I really play is Call of Duty 4 online with friends - it's my social life :-S