Good Fucking Bye

Bought a new car the other day. Renault Laguna 2.0RT on a P plate. Full electric pack, air con, the works... nice tidy little motor.



Trina slept over again last night, not sure if I want to continue this... she's just a little too ermm... quirky for my liking, she's as paranoid as hell as well!

'So you broke down,
Trying to leave town,
I broke down crying on your return.
You left me,feeling awfull,
I'll never see your face again.
You made for a bad lover's liver
You sold all the covers and busted my head.
You made me, such an asshole,
I wish we'd never met

Im tired of being bored,
I'm through with the headaches at night
And my hands, they tremble like earthquakes,
Under the table, under the daytime sky,
Good-fucking-bye.

When you lose hope,
And start to cope,
Watching the tyranny with sober eyes,
The daybreak and sunset,
All hours in between are spent murdering time.
You made for a bad lover's liver
You sold all the covers and fucked up my head,
You made me, such an asshole
I wish we'd never met

I'm tired of being bored,
I'm through with the headaches at night
And my hands, they tremble like earthquakes,
Under the table, under the daytime sky,
Good-fucking-bye

Good-fucking-bye

Good-fucking-bye'







Inside the pocket

Good night tonight, had a laugh, some of them at my own expense due to the duo deciding I was an apt 'target', in a good way of course. It's good to be commented on about my build, and that is what they did, as did a friend of mine who I have not seen for 10 years or so... it's an ego booster...

Michelle, Elaines daughter gave me some looks tonight... I may have mis-read, but I think she dig's me... I wouldn't complain.

Trina has been texting me today, trying to arrange a 'date'... a date is a funny thing to do after we have slept together 4 times... might go ahead with it, she is a nice lass, if a bit schizo (due to being hurt before), then again, aren't we all?

'I met you last month at a party
You brought me up, you brought me down
You came to me last night as an apparation
Now you came around

What's with you and all your talk of independence?
What's with me and my lack of innocence?

Keep it locked up inside the pocket
And maybe I will sleep
I'll be right there inside the pocket
And you'll be knee deep

My palms were sweaty and my heart grew big
My leg, my leg was shaking
How badly I wanted you with me
You came to me and said "This could be something"
I'll take something over nothing anyday

What's with me and the way that I've been lately?
What's with you and the way you make me feel?

Keep it locked up inside the pocket
And maybe I will sleep
I'll be right there inside the pocket
And you'll be knee deep

And I'm scared
'Cause these things fall apart
Electric baby
And I've known it from the start
So please forgive me for being like I am
But I'll take you if I can

Keep it locked up inside the pocket
And maybe I will sleep
I'll be right there inside the pocket
And you'll be knee deep

Oooooooh.'

Juneau

Strange couple of days. Got hit on by the fittest 18 year old I have seen in a while. Had she been a little more sober, something would have happened.

Sunday was ok, got dragged down the town by one Zoe, a barmaid I hardly know and have only spoken to a couple of times... ended up home alone...

Yesterday - wow, that was a funny one. Nothing to eat and several vast quantities of vodka meant that I got home about 9ish, zonked out and missed Trina coming round. She was outside for 15 minutes trying to phone me, texting me and ringing the bell - lmao, I must have been really out of it!

Charidee night tonight at the Engineers, change of scenery I suppose.

Still think about her, still hate her, still miss her...

'Tied to the testing of wills, and my heart breaks and spills
Left to the sight of the sky, in your arms I'm defined
Thrown to the wolves in the minds of your enemies
And I'm stone in the eyes of your foolishness

If this is what I'm meant for , no longer interesting
Fall forward just to even the score
Just a thought to you

And I'm nothing more than a line in your book'