This is my heart thats breaking down, I'm screaming someone help me please!

I missed another hockey friend's wedding.

I find it hard to go to these things as a 'singleton'. Back in the day, me and Stacey would have gone and as per, I would be with the guy's, she would be with the girls. Now it feels awkward for me to be at a social gathering like that and be by myself.

I'm kind of happy being single, nobody bitching about how much I drink or how much time I spend in front of the TV. But I also miss being part of Gav and.....

I've had plenty of chances for relationships... but I am so messed up myself I know I couldn't make them work.

Hey ho, all shits and giggles...

Band name will be Soundhouse - thats a definate. First practice has had to be put back a week as the rehearsal room is already booked.

Been writing again, it's my 'therapi' song I think (music is from a very good friend of mine and a very talented musician / songwriter) - thinking of the title 'breaking down' - meh!

I've seen angels fall from blinding heights

First band meeting went pretty well. All 5 of us seemed to gel which is always a good sign (then again, that happened with my last band :-S )

The lineup consists of Si on lead guitar, John on rythmn guitar, Anth on bass, Chris on drums and yours truly on vocals - This is Si in guitar rock god mode...

At the meeting me and Si made the decision for each member to suggest a song to learn for next week...

My choice



Si's choice



Johns choice



Anth's choice



And finally, Chris' choice



Quite a varied selection and, hopefully, one that will appeal to the majority of any crowd we play to.

Not been drinking as bad as when I was at my 'best' but could still do a lot better. If this project is gonna be a go'er, I need to cut either right back or cut it off - I don't think I can be a social drinker.

Had an IB50 form to fill in again to prove I am incapable of working. I get annoyed (and hit the bottle harder) when I get these as they seem to expect a degeneritive disease like arthritis to magically get better since the last form. The operation I had was botched and I have a severely weakened left hand. I also have arthritis in my right hand, sciatica, scoliosis and a lumbar disc lesion... but they seems to think I can go and work in a factory for minimum wage!

If I could work, trust me, i'd still be running my computer consultancy. When I was XS Computers I had running agreements with several companies to maintain there equipment, I was building PC's for people daily and also making the obligitary call outs for virii and spyware removal... and I loved it. Now I struggle to type, have to pay someone if I need to change the motherboard in mine and can't spend too long at one because I can't sit for extended periods of time!

hey ho, it's all good though, at least I can read and listen to stuff using my laptop. Currently working my way through the Dalek Empire audiobooks.

And speaking of The Dokker (BIG assed spoilers for any Dr Who fans outside the UK!)



I marked out like a 5 year old child :-D