Makedamnsure

I think I am dying... Health problems are getting worse. First was a chest infection that wouldn't go away, now it's crippling pain in my stomach and coughing up blood (also been vomiting blood for the last few weeks)

Kirby keeps talking to me when she is out, then fucking off with random lads - seems to be the type I attract!

Again, kudos to the british legal system. Because I didn't turn up for the hearing (due to health issues, both physical and mental), the fuckwit of a judge awarded the case to them - I am going to tear his head off and eat his soul... best friend my fucking arse!!

I'm sick of being made to feel an outsider by my own family... my nephew, Paul, asked me if I was going to Butlins with 'all the family' - was the first I had heard about this... fuck 'em...

been cabined up for the last few days due to this 'illness' (whatever it is), expecting a visit from the baillif - life couldn't be better :-/

(only good thing is that me and our John have booked tickets to go and see Taking Back Sunday in Newcastle on May 25th - just hope I am still here for that at least)

' You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
In time, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
It says, "The shade across the bed, you are red, violent red."
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna bring you down so badly
I just wanna bring you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)'