Toy Soldiers

Funeral went ok, saw 'whatsername' out working on the night, didn't hit me much - if at all! One of the barmaids from Yates was giving me some _major_ attention, she's a babe... and courting! Trina, probably the hardest female in this town, told me how much she likes me... strange night in all, still ended up alone.

Last night Penny was working on the door in Yates and made a point to talk to me, I like penny, she is cool. The barmaid, Kirsty, was down Church Street Later with her boyfriend, Shelley was down there with some lad... why the fuck can't I find someone single? Was talking to Sam in Bar Paris, and the conversation got round to 'whatsername' and he said he can't stand her and knows how much she lies - him and his girlfriend, another penny, have split up - wouldn't surprise me if that little bitch had something to do with it!

Going to meet Kev up the club in a bit, got no money, owe Kev £20, fucked up with the monitors for Barry.

' It wasn't my intention to mislead you
It never should have been this way
What can I say
It's true, I did extend the invitation
I never knew how long you'd stay

When you hear temptation call
It's your heart that takes, takes the fall
(Won't you come out and play with me)

Step by step
Heart to heart
Left, right, left
We all fall down
Like toy soldiers
Bit by bit
Torn apart
We never win
But the battle wages on
For Toy soldiers

It's getting hard to wake up in the morning
My head is spinning constantly
How can it be?
How could I be so blind to this addiction?
If I don't stop, the next one's gonna be me

Only emptiness remains
It replaces all, all the pain
(Won't you come out and play with me)'

Moments Forever Faded

It's our kid's funeral today, sleep well Harry, you will be missed but you are in good company.

I'm drunk - at 9:30 in the morning no less

I'm lonely and I am in major financial trouble...

' In the black and white, wounds all bound
Sitting at the table, biting nails all short
The consequence of adultery
As he rips you from your skin

We're all paying for this and in your prayers
You believe

YOU BELIEVE, YOU BELIEVE (just for the first time)
YOU BELIEVE, YOU BELIEVE (just like the last time)
YOU BELIEVE, YOU BELIEVE (a seam away from breaking)
YOU BELIEVE, YOU BELIEVE (always forever)

Tasting you for the first time, just to breathe you in
Breaking you for the first time, bathed in sin

The embers will burn you, will burn you tonight'

Someone that you're with

Well, I got my answer last night... I walked across to where I had saw Vicky's car go and I was right, a new house, with both of their cars outside. I am glad for her, but I wish it was me...

Been getting what I feel to be a bit of interest from a barmaid up the club, Shelley, dark hair and quite nice - certainly wouldn't complain...

Found a phone today, a Nokia 6680, seems decent, hopefully can get it unlocked to sell (or keep and sell my 2 ones)

Need to get some pennies together to get out on Thursday and through Stockton on Friday, it's Fordy's leaving do and Oggie's retirement do..

' I reside in 209, you’re in 208
You moved in last Friday night,
and I just couldn’t wait
So I tried to call across the hall,
to ask you out someday
But a lineup formed outside your door, and I was way too late

Well I’d rather start off slow
This whole thing’s like
some sort of race
Instead of winning what I want
I’m sitting here in second place

Because somewhere
the one I wanna be with’s
with somebody else
Oh god, I wanna be that
someone that you’re with
I wanna be that someone
that you’re with
And I can talk about it all day long
‘til I run out of breath
But I still wanna be that
someone that you’re with
I’ve got to be that
someone that you’re with
And I’m pacing by the phone
‘Cause I hate to be alone
And if you’re out there with him
somewhere and just about to kiss
God I wanna be that
someone that you’re with

Well I hear your favorite songs
you sing along with everyday
And I borrow things that
I don’t need for conversation sake
Last night I heard your key,
it hit your lock at 4 AM
Instead of being out with me
you must be out with them

Well I’d rather start off slow
This whole thing’s like
some sort of race
Instead of winning what I want
I’m sitting here in second place

Because somewhere the one
I wanna be with’s
with somebody else
Oh god, I wanna be that
someone that you’re with
I wanna be that
someone that you’re with
And I can talk about it all day long
‘til I run out of breath
But I still wanna be that
someone that you’re with
I’ve got to be that
someone that you’re with
And I’m pacing by the phone
‘Cause I hate to be alone
And if you’re out there with him
somewhere and just about to kiss
God, I wanna be that
someone that you’re with

Well somewhere the one
I wanna be with’s
with somebody else
Oh god, I wanna be that
someone that you’re with
And I can talk about it all day long
‘til I run out of breath
But I still wanna be that
someone that you’re with
I’ve got to be that
someone that you’re with
And I’m pacing by the phone
‘Cause I hate to be alone
And if you’re out there with him
somewhere and just about to kiss
God, I’ve got to be that
someone that
I wanna be that someone that
I’ve got to be that
someone that you’re with'