Life on Standby

"I don't think people are meant to be by themselves, that's why, if you actually find someone you care about... it's important to let go of the little things - even if you can't let go all the way. Because nothing sucks more than feeling all alone... no matter how many people are around you"

Sunday, March 05, 2006

These Walls

Kirby thought I was shy, and it never happened... hey ho, unlucky K, we could have been good

Me and Kev are talking again, in fact, tonight, his ex junkie son was hanging about with me and paul... he's not a bad lad

My niece was arrested last week due to an ex....

Vicky came up to me and apologised for the night in Chicago and said that she was drunk and didn't know what she was saying... as much as it killed a part of me inside, I pretended not to care and brushed her off - it hurts me to see her... she is all I have ever wanted....

I am, not so slowly, killing myself... I am no a self confessed alcoholic, and yet I don't care what happens, i'm the black sheep of my family... they would be better off if I wasn't here...

' Something missing
Left behind
Search in circles
Everytime I try

I've been here before, yeah
I've seen you before

I can't escape walking down these halls
Hard to find a place where there are no walls
And no lines begging me to cross
Only straight ahead, better move along

Like clockwork
I commit the crime
I pretend to be
Everything they like

I've been here before, yeah
I've seen you before

I can't escape walking down these halls
Hard to find a place where there are no walls
And no lines begging me to cross
Only straight ahead, better move along

And I trade everything for this
And I trade everything for this
Why do I read the writing on the wall?
Why do I read the writing on the wall?

I won't lose my place in line
I've been here too long and I've spent to much time
I won't lose my place in line
I've been here too long and I've spent to much time

Something missing
Left behind
Search in circles
Everytime I try

I've been here before, yeah
I've seen you before

I can't escape walking down these halls
Hard to find a place where there are no walls
And no lines begging me to cross
Only straight ahead, better move along

And I trade everything for this
And I trade everything for this
Why do I read the writing on the wall?
Why do I read the writing on the wall?
Why do I read the writing on the wall?
Why do I read the writing on the wall?
Wall
Wall'