Far away

I thought she might have came round tonight, I was wrong - again. Why is it when I actually find someone I like, they don't feel the same? Half drunk, plan on being totally drunk soon

'Just the other day
I was looking for myself again
Trying to put back all the pieces
Back to the way they were

Sometimes it's not so easy
When you have so many voices
Tell you what to do
I think I've got it now
But I can't be too sure

Far away as we shoot across the sky
Far away to the corners of my mind
Sooner or later
It will slowly come back to me

If I could build a spaceship
Would you fly away with me?
Or would you stay?
A million miles an hour
Flying circles as we orbit 'round earth
If I stuck my head out the window
Do you think it'd clear my head?
Or would it burst?
I guess it's all the same
But at least it wouldn't hurt

Far away as we shoot across the sky
Far away to the corners of my mind
And the voices in my head
I think they've finally gone away
Far away
Far away

Sooner or later
They will slowly come back to me'

It ends tonight

Not heard anything from Stacie... new it was a bad move.

Sold my PA system, needed the money, couldn't find reliable band members.

Bought an Ipaq with Tom Tom.

Put petrol in the car, seems to be the problem.

I'm lonely

Going to get drunk

'Your subtleties, they strangle me
I can't explain myself at all
And all that wants and all that needs
I don't want to need at all

The walls are breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

A falling star, at least I fall alone
I can't explain what you can't explain
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls are breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you left me alone
A weight is lifted on this evening
I give the final blow
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, it ends tonight

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than bein' on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, it ends when...

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, it ends tonight
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, it ends tonight, tonight, insight
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight'

Violence

Stacie slept over last night. After the fiasco of the other night, we spent some time together. Last night we almost slept together, her choice, she made the first moves and put me in... but then we stopped for some reason.... earlier on in the night, she had gone to the toilet and come back crying but she wouldn't tell me why.

I texted her today to tell her that I am not going to fuck her about and that she was all I could think about - probably a wrong move...

Still don't know where I really stand

We slept in spoons... all night, my arm round her, her holding my hand

I like her

'Six bottles went down the drain
One hour's a waste of time
I'd ask if you feel the same
Still pushing that chance to try
Your breath in this cool room chill
Long hair that blows side to side
You speak and make time stand still
And each time you walk right on by

Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Forever and after

Can't count all the eyes that stare
Can't count all the things they see
She kills when the life despair
Just victims are left to bleed
One drink and the pain goes down
Soft shadows lay by her feet
Lay soft as you slowly drown
Lay still as you fall asleep

Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Forever and after

Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Like violence
Like violence

Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Forever and after
Like violence
You have me
Forever and after
Like violence
You kill me
Forever and after'